Lol, I just realized I didn't mention anything about Thanksgiving. Well, it was good. On Thursday I went to Aunt Nancy's and had Thanksgiving with Dad's side of the family. Becky's pregnant. Not much really important to tell...
Then on Friday I had Thanksgiving/Paige's Bday party. That was good.
Then on Saturday we all went to Grant's Farm (Uncle Mark, Aunt Cindy, Brett, Ashley, Grandma, then all of us).
So...on Sunday night I tried to go to sleep on Friday...didn't work out so well. I didn't fall asleep until 12.30!!! Okay, then last night I actually fell asleep a little earlier...but not much.
At ten Kaleb called me. It was a little surprising. I had given up all hope of him...(as you can tell from the RIP in my earlier entries) He said stuff like he was such a jerk and I didn't even tell him that wasn't true. I'm so sick of the crap he has been putting me through. He lets the world effect how he treats every one in his life, thats not even right, its not fair for him to do that to the ones who care about him.
It did make my day however that he called me, but I'm not falling for his little games anymore. If he really cares I figure he'll call me again. I'm over these retarded high school relationships. Well, not friendships of course.
So today I had like, this major stiff neck! It hurt like nothing else!!!!!! Lol. I felt retarded... I mean, I couldn't look in certain directions and it hurt so bad. I actually was put in a group with Michael Baxa and I couldn't even look at him! And it hurt so bad I couldn't really pay attention to him...oh well, I do have uh, six classes with him so I'm sure I'm bound to get in a group with him again sometime!
Anyway, I came home and slept for 2 hours! My neck is almost completely healed now, at least for the moment. I'm so glad. I guess thats all I have to say...not much going on in my life besides whats mentioned above. Nate...I see him all the time with Casey...but like I said I try not to care because this is high school...there is so much more to life. Steven and I haven't spoken for over a month now. So yay! Thats my life for you. It will get better though...you know, things always get worse before they get better. Thats just the way I see it.
Not Now
Today I listened to what will probably be the last single ever released by Blink 182, Not Now. I was just sitting there playing Pokemon, I know...so lame, and I heard the intro.
I was like, this sounds like Blink style of music but a little darker...I was thinking I've never heard this song and I knew they aren't together anymore. But then I heard Tom's voice and I knew it was them. I mean, it sounded like Box Car a little, but I knew Tom wasn't furthering that band any more. So it turned out it was a previously unreleased old song. It was beautiful. It made me so sad...
Last night I was reading an interview with Tom where he discussed the 'hiatus' and it was just so sad. Apperently he chose his family over touring more with Blink...and Mark and Travis said, "If your family is going to be your priority, then you better be cool with the repercussions." The song before 'Not Now' had been 'Swing Life Away' by Rise Against (my said song that represents Kaleb...) and I was thinking of Steven and Kaleb...
When I heard this song though all those feelings melted away and all I could think about was Blink and Tom...and how even some of the most famous people can have their hearts broken by the ones they love the most... They aren't so different from us after all...
Who He Is Isn't Who He Was
So after the whole...uh, thing on the internet I signed off to get a grip on myself...
I called him. I don't know why...I'm just...like that. I want to try to fix things... So he actually picks up the phone...
Every other word is f*** or s***. It was terrible. It is so unreal how much he has changed. Its as is after he let me go, he let himself go as well. He would never have cursed in my presence before, it was like a sin. I asked him when he started talking like that and he said, "What the f*** are you talking about? I always talk like this." I was like, I don't know...
I'm so sad...it never should have come to this. He had so much going for him. Now he will become just another name on a tombstone, he could have been someone great... He asked me why I even give a f***, that he was just a piece of s***...and I said I loved him, I would never just abandon the ones I care about...they always abandon me. I think that was too deep for him though, and he had to go...
I loved him, and he loved me...
but it was a love that wasn't meant to be...
so when I dream he will haunt my sleep...
though when I wake his memory will not keep...
~ ~ R I P ~ ~
KALEB RAY HIGGINS
...MY LOVE...
I Didn't Hold My Breath In the Shallow Water...
scottzawesum: i guess i can't ask too much of him. i did tell him i hated him. i just figured he would care enough to try to patch things up, but no...he's a guy so of course he will take the easy way out and let me drown in my own misery until i realize i'm in shallow water and just stand up...
scottzawesum: but no! i will not surrender! i will perservere and hold my ground! he's not winning again, not this time. i will give him the cold shoulder as long as it takes!!!!!
scottzawesum: i will hold my breath as long as it takes!!!!!!!!
Well, I surrendered...and I tried to talk it out with him...You know how I am. Well, you can guess what happened to me...See for yourself:
scottzawesum: okay seriously kaleb you were supposed to call me last night remember?
morganzawesum: no i dont
morganzawesum: i was at morgans
scottzawesum: you don't remember you saying you would call me after your mom was done with the phone???
morganzawesum: my mom used it for a while then morgans dad came and picked me up
scottzawesum: you could have done something to let me know you cared...not just blown me off...
morganzawesum: sorry
scottzawesum: you are?
morganzawesum: not really
scottzawesum: what happened to you still being there for me and feeling bad for blowing me off?
scottzawesum: when she broke up with you i was there for you...but now that she took you back you started treating me like...like i don't matter at all...
morganzawesum signed off at 8:27:34 PM.
Earth Angel - Death Cab for Cutie (cover)
Omg!!! Did you know Death Cab did a cover of Earth Angel??? Well, I love it and it is so worth listening to. I was just blog searching and I found it. I love this song. And I love Death Cab. Its so perfect.
So I talked to Nate tonight, and he just seemed so ... good. I don't know how he can do that. He really does put on a show. I asked him why he really broke up with me and he said plainly it was just too much stress. Which is so understandable...but...well, I won't go into that. He just seems like such a fake, but when I talked to him it seemed like he was for real. I don't know what to think. He is a good actor though if he was lying. Lol. I don't care though, I still want to be friends with him. Or try, if he is willing.
I called Kaleb tonight. I'm a little upset about it. He freakin gave the phone to his brother and his brother called me a uh, bad word, and hung up on me! Kaleb didn't even called back to apologize or anything... I think that is so rude. Then he said he would call me back, but no! He couldn't even do that much. I give up. I give up...
Hmm...guess it is time for me to get off because I am bored out of my mind. Blog surfing isn't the most exciting thing in the world. Night.
* CONTINUATION *
So I call Kaleb right? Just to see why the heck he didn't call me back. Well...he picks up the phone, "What???"
"Uh...hi."
"I'm at Morgan's right now and we're watching a movie. I have to go."
Yeah, grr!!!!! I know its his girlfriend and he has every right to go. But he didn't even consider me! He totally forgot to call me. My boyfriend just broke up with me! I was there for Kaleb...I never forget to call him back...when Morgan dumped him did I ditch him and forget about him??? No!!! I was there for him!
And how does he repay that? Letting his little brother yell and me, not apologize, and then forgets about me...I'm through. I'm done with screwing around with him. That is it. I don't even know why I cared this long.
Lol...the funny thing is anyone who knows me will know that tomorrow I will be right back to nice Muriel who cares about everyone...even Kaleb, the jerk who forgot all about me even though he claimed to love me. Yes, you all know I am incapable of doing the whole 'cold shoulder' thing to anyone...
It really sucks sometimes...but its my curse and my blessing. I'll live with it!!! Later. (lol...now i'm happy again...i swear my mood swings are ridiculous!)
What Went Wrong
So, Nate did write me a note... Here it is: (yes I have nothing else to do so I will just write the whole note instead of trying to describe it)
Hey,
I'm soooo....sorry. I really like you, I'm just so stressed right now. My grandma is in the red still and I'm really freakin out. I, more or less, was raised by her and seeing her last night, suffering at the edge of death, hooked up to all those breathing machines and I.V.s scared the shit out of me. My grades are decreasing and I'm going into a physical and mental recession. I am physically and psychologically falling apart. I've been putting on a show for the world to see and forgot to cast myself as the lead. (*tell me this isn't a work of art!!!*) I don't want to put you through this. Words can't describe how screwed up my emotions are right now or how sorry I am, But thats why I'm going to do what I am about to do. (okay...I told him already I wanted to be there for him...and I was serious...) I do think it is for the best though, regardless of how much it pains me to say it. It would cause me eve more pain in the end to see how I might treat you or do you wrong if we keep going out. (I really don't know whether to believe him...if he was really thinking about me wouldn't he let me make that decision?) I saw what I did to you today and it almost tore my heart out. (um...then, why did you act like that? but I am willing to be patient...I totally understand...) Thus I have to ask that we see other people. (bing! why would he want to see other people if the reason we broke up was so he wouldn't hurt me???) I'm really sorry and I still want to be friends. I just can't hurt you. I'd never forgive myself. Well, I g2g. I'll still call you. (which he hasn't...yet anyway...)
Love, Nate
So there you have it. I don't know what to think. It was sweet and wimpy. It was kind and a load of crap at the same time. I would have to say Nate is the king of making you feel good about a bad thing. It sounds like an apology, like we're making up, but he's really dumping me! Lol. That takes talent. I have to give him credit for that.
Anyway...as for the rest of my day...I didn't have that bad of a day. It was surprisingly good. I mean...it WAS school. Lol. But for a break up it wasn't that bad. I don't know... Nothing really interesting happened besides that. I've been reading about pacifism recently...you know, I've been thinking about taking that on as something to think about. Every time I get upset, maybe I should just think nonnviolence and think about positive solutions...I know thats why Christianity is about and everything but for some reason thinking about it in...human terms is easier. Its too hard to think of being perfect, being 'Christian'. But if I think of it as...pacifism, then its not that hard to imagine. I don't know if that makes any sense.
So last night, usually it is really hard for me to fall asleep...but last night after I got done talking to Ben and doing my chores...I laid down. Then I just tried to pray. All I said was, dear God, I thank you for every breath I take...and I fell asleep! Lol. I thought it was like a miracle. I was amazed when I woke up in the morning. I mean, that is seriously all I did.
Besides that I guess nothing else is happening...this is going to be a 5 day weekend and I have nothing to do and no one to hang out with...I was going to invite Nate over for Thanksgiving but I suppose I can't do that now. Oh well....I guess I will find something to do!
Passanger Seat - Update
Well, I talked to ------ and they said that after 7th hour Nate wrote a break up note to me and Steven was supposed to give it to me. I guess it didn't reach me. Anyway...I though about breaking up with him before he got the chance to break up with me...but then I realized, that is not like me at all. If I'm going to go down, I might as well go down honorably and loving him all the way into my doom.
I left this on his voicemail: (well, something like this) I know that I put you on the spot earlier when I asked you if you were going to break up with me so I figure you might not have ment it when you told me it was my choice if we break up or not. But anyway, I care about you and I would never break up with you because you are going through a rough time. I like you and I want to be there for you. Call me.
I wish what I said was that perfect...but it was something along those lines, lol. I figure if he is anywhere close to being right for me he will realize I am not like other girls and I might be a girl worth having. I'm the kinda girl you would take home and show off to your mom and marry. I think whoever gets me will be lucky because I am as loyal as a dog...like a lost puppy. The guy who finds me will be my hero. Lol. Oh well...it was fun while it lasted.
Plus Nate was FINE. Its such a shame I only got to make out with him once... Shame shame... Ugh...and of course theres the added bonus of Steven getting to know about my anguish. I so wish Nate wouldn't have brought him into this... Nate is so a wimp for writing a break up note. That wimpy man whore... Well, thats all I have to say. Later.
Passanger Seat
My weekend was great...not. Friday night was wonderful; Nate and I talked all night long and I thought things were great. But I've realized that nothing good lasts long and the best thing I can do is let go and hope things get better.
So what happened? Uh, well, Saturday Nate went to see Harry Potter, without me. Then that night he had some friends over and apparantly a girl was coming on to him. Then on Sunday he went and hung out with this band. Then last night I finally got to talk to him...but he decided he wanted to 'go to bed'...at 6.30! Like I'm gonna believe that... Anyway, he told me his grandma was sick and in the hospital, but he didn't act like it was really serious...
So I just go and figure things will get better today...well, they didn't... I came to school and waited to see him and when I did he was just staring at the ground. I asked him if he just wanted me to leave him alone, and he said yes, so I left him alone. Later on I wrote him a note...he was still depressed and not talking to me...and he still wouldn't even tell me what was wrong. I thought his grandmother died.
Then I saw him talking to Jeremy, smiling, and then Crissy told me he had been talking to her. Now what the heck??? He will talk to them, but not to his own girlfriend? I knew something was up.
At lunch he didn't sit with me...but that made sense because he was with Danielle, it was her last day. But then after lunch...she wasn't around. And he was just talking to this freshman. When I tried to talk to him it wasn't even like I was his girlfriend! I felt like an idiot. Then when he were upstairs I expected him to talk to me, but no, he was walking with another girl! I felt so stupid!
Then after 7th hour I grabbed him for a sec and asked him what was going on. He said he needed to call me tonight and talk to me. I was like, why are you going to break up with me? He was like, well, I was going to leave that up to you, since my grandma is going through this I am going to be an emotional wreak for a while. I totally understand that so I told him I didn't want to break up with him.
Now I'm just sitting here waiting for him to call. I have a feeling he was just saying the whole thing about it being my decision because I put him on the spot and he didn't want to seem like a jerk. Plus I probably would've made a big scene...lol.
Maybe it would be better if I just didn't talk to him tonight! Try to fix it at school so he can't just blow me off...and I can make it a big scene if I want! Lol. I didn't even think of that! Well, maybe I will do that. Thats all I have to say for now! Later.
Mmmmmmm Hmmmmmmmm ... Good
Well, yesterday was a good day...At the moment I am immensely bored though. I'm just waiting for someone to get on or for Nate to call.
Yesterday Nate and I talked until midnight...we basically talked all night long. It was interesting. Its strange how much like Ben he is. But better. Ben doesn't acknowledge me to other people, but Nate does. I really do like him. I wish I could see him tonight. He said he might be going to see Harry Potter with his little sister...but I don't know if I can go with him.
Lol, yesterday I wrote him a note and it was after school so I didn't have much time to talk to him (plus he was on the phone and I was listening to my ipod) so I just stuck it in his pocket and walked away. He thought I was breaking up with him! I would never do that...unless he did something really bad to me. Anyway, I just thought that was kind of funny.
Today we went and bought the purple hair dye; I'm going to dye streaks in my hair purple! Lol. I'm a little nervous about it though...Oh well. It is just hair after all. I had something to say...darnit. Oh well I guess... Jeez. Well, I think thats about it then...now I will go back to being bored! Later.
Nathan Sams
Well, Monday night I think it was...Nate called me, and told me he broke up with Rachel! Then he told me he liked me! Oh my gosh it was so cool. I mean, no guy has ever called me and told me he liked me. Anyway...
So he invited me to go bowling with him on Wednesday, and I said yes...
Tuesday night I talked to him too...Then on Wednesday at lunch he came and sat by me...
He asked me out! I was so amazed (and happy). So now we are going out... This is only the second day though.
So yesterday, we went bowling. We didn't get to drive there (his mom dropped us off) so we were there an hour early. That was interesting. We had to sit there and talk for a long time... It was kind of awkward. Then everyone else got there. Jeremy, Erica, Crissy, Danielle...oh, and Greg.
The first game Nate almost won...but then Jeremy beat him by 3 points...I felt bad for him! Then the second game I went crazy and got 3 spares in a row! I won; I beat Jerem yby 3 points. Lol. Haha.
Afterward his mom came and picked us up and I went back to his house. It is so gorgeous! I loved it. You walk in and its like, the jungle...lol. Not really but there are plants everywhere and vines like growing up the walls. His room was really awesome too. The bed was like, up in the air attached to the wall. (with a couch underneath)
We went for a ride in his Jeep. Lets just say that was near terrifying. Its bad enough I'm scared of getting in wrecks...we were like, jerking all over the place. (it was a stick shift, he's not that bad of a driver, lol)
We sat on his couch for like, a half hour listening to Death Cab, it was awesome. We kept waiting for the other to kiss us, but he wasn't making his move. Lol, we liked, talked about it, but we wouldn't do it. So finally I just kissed him. He's a pretty good kisser. I was afraid he wouldn't be...but now I don't have to worry about that!
Then he took me home... *tear* ...but we parked in the deserted house's driveway and tried to make out... It was mostly me just feeling really awkward though so I ended up talking like the whole time. Then he really took me home...
I forgot my phone in his car, so I didn't get to talk to him last night...
Today I saw him between almost every class. He is so sweet, he walked me to almost every class too. I hope he doesn't think he HAS to do that though. But it is nice to see him since we don't have any classes together.
After school he called me...I feel so stupid all the time though. I don't know what is wrong with me. Around any other guy I am completely cool...but around guys I like I am a total dork. I hope I stoppit really soon. I don't want him to break up with me...I do like him.
Well...I guess thats all I have to say for now. I hope I stop acting like a dork! Lol. L8r.
Movies...Crissy's...Wal-Mart!!!
Okay, so Saturday night Crissy is talking to me at 6.30. "You wanna go see a movie?"
"Sure. What movie?"
Well, you get the picture. I chose Chicken Little, which started at 7 so I hurried up and got ready. Brian came with us too. Omg, it was such a cute movie. I loved it. I mean, as soon as I walked in the theater I was laughing (we got there late). Afterward we went to Walmart, yay.
GAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!! I hate my sibs they are driving me insane! As soon as my mom leaves they go crazy screaming and stuff. I hate them. I am so not in the mood for this crap. I think I just need a long vacation away from these brats. GRR.
Anyway, back to my journal... Then I spent the night at Crissy's. That was fun. We stayed up really late and talked to Nate Sams (who I think is really hott) (plus I think he is nice) (I think I like him...lol) for an hour and a half. I don't really know what we did all night but we stayed up till like 2.
The next day Crissy took me out for my first fourwheeler ride! It was scary lol. I felt like such a girly girl I was screaming and everything lol. We also listened to Fall Out Boy like crazy. Now that I stopped hating everything that reminds me of Kaleb I can finally like them again! They rock. I'm so sad I didn't get to go to the concert they had last night. Kaleb went with his best friend Michael Moore. So awesome.
Then that night we went to Wal Mart which is funny because I hate Wal Mart but Nate took us so I wanted to go. When he took me home we were all alone and I wanted so badly just to reach over and kiss him... But he is going out with this girl Rachel Maxwell. Finish later... My gay bother is sitting in here watching wrestling. Later.
Midnight Thoughts
Forgotten.
You and I sneaking out of a crowded room to find conforting isolation in a couch in a hidden room.
Forgotten.
You held me close and told me you loved me as tears flooded my eyes.
Forgotten.
Memories of a love that now seems to have never occured.
Memories of a love you thought would never fade, never leave us.
Memories a boy and a girl thought would always wrap them in a blanket of serene security.
All forgotten.
What is love?
A thing to be charished like a sunny afternoon on a porch swing with grandfather?
A thing to be feared like the moment a year later when you find out he is gone?
The price we pay for love.
Will we ever find what we seek?
The illusion of happiness is something just out of reach. We strive and strive, but in the end we come up short.
Love is bittersweet, like a melody from childhood that plays in the back of the mind.
Memories may fade, people forsake you, but love is never forgotten.
Ouch = Skating... Well, Not Really... Lol.
Well, I just read Steven's livejournal and this is what he had to say about me: Muriel and I still aren't talking. It's great. I love it. It should stay like this forever. Everything she does annoys me. Thinking about her makes me mad. She was alright sometimes. I don't know. She's so stupid and prissy and blonde and annoying and self centered and she's a hypocrite...etc. Gosh, she's stupid. How great this is!I guess at least now I know exactly what is going on... 5 whole years of my life wasted on making that friendship. And in one moment it was all gone. I guess thats what makes life life. Bad things happen. At least Kaleb is still talking to me. BTW:
Kaleb is in a really hard spot right now... His grandpa might be dying, and the doctors don't even know what's wrong with him. I hate it because there is nothing I can do for him. I can't even be there for him if he doesn't talk to me. How is it fair you can't help the ones you love??? He and Morgan are also having problems...lots of them. I don't get it. When we were going out we didn't have barely any fights...but if he really likes her than I am just going to be happy for him. He has a big misconception on love though. He thinks it is a game! For me you just have to put your feelings up there, or you'll never really know whats going on. But Kaleb thinks you have to 'play the game.' I don't know how to help him...
On to happier news! I went skating with Heather last night...That was funny. Every time someone would fall over I would like start screaming and stuff. Lol. I only fell over once! And I was bending over while skating to pick up a free pass thing someone dropped. Harrison Knoll was there...and he saw me fall over. Not one of my most elegant moments but it was funny anyway. I think he's kind of cute. Heather said that he kept trying to skate with me and stuff, but I swear I didn't hear him. We did skate together on that slow skate time. Then he asked me to go to the movies with him so I did. We went to see Jarhead. It was okay, but the ending was very anticlimactic. Just like my night.
Harrison just took me home...and that was it. Nothing! I was disappointed. I'm thinking about asking him to go somewhere with me next weekend because I could do so much better, lol. I didn't even get his phone number! I felt so stupid. The highlight of the night was finding, you won't believe this, pot in his backseat. A big bag just sitting there! Lol. I couldn't believe it. I was like, oh great. So yeah, that was my Friday night.
I don't know if today I'm still going to the mall with Scottie and Brian or not. I don't know if I want to do anything... Life has just thrown me in a rut right now...Oh well! I guess I will try to have a good weekend anyway! I mean, yesterday was good except for the ending! Maybe that will happen today, but better. Lol. Later!
"Hurry rebels! If we disperse the enemy won't be able to get as many of us at one time!" the captain ordered.
The runty green rebels then scattered about the pink surface, trying to escape the evil authority of Darth S. Yes, that was what they called him, Darth "S." No one knew his real identity.
From his large ship came a massive pronged weapon, used to impale the poor rebels.
They had no weapons, no form of self defense. They were all at the mercy of this relentless villain.
One rebel made a run for it, darting off the pink platform. He escaped, but as he was falling to his death he was captured by the mouth of a ferocious beast! He would then be slowly digested for thousands of years in his gruesome belly!
More and more the rebels were being impaled every second! It was a massacre! The pronged weapon was going psycho! It was jabbing and stabbing all over this rebel alliance!!!
"Samuel! That is enough! Stop playing with your food and eat those peas!"
"Yes mother..." he sighed as he put the fork down....
It Was Love Mistaken For Lust
It was a dark, desolate night. The icy wind rustled the leaves of the trees. I wondered down the pathway to her house. It was a short cut, created by me when I was a child. Sneaking off in the middle of the night sometimes I would sit for hours with her beneath the tall oak tree.
Tonight there was no meeting, not that she knew of anyway. It was a surprise. I wasn't supposed to be back yet, but she didn't know because she hadn't written me for a while. College had hindered those coffee-shop meetings.
There it was, magnifiscient and beautiful, as was she. Her room was on the right side of the second floor. I used to climb up to her window and sit with her. I had missed her so; with her long dark hair and pale skin. She was slender and soft. I longed for her rose-colored lips to touch mine.
Her light was on. Strange. She had mentioned she had been recieving letters from some one she did not know. I would kill them if they touched her.
I began to climb the vine wall up to her room. There she was. And so was he...He was lying on her, carassing her beautiful pale body with his lips. Animosity and hatred swelled inside me. I beat against the glass, petrifying them both.
I opened her window as they stared, dismay lining the wrinkles on their foreheads. "Its the man from the letter..." she whispered.
As I slid through they stretched out for their clothing scattered about the floor. I punched him hard with the back of my revolver, splattering blood across his face.
"I thought you loved me?!" I screamed. "I came to surprise you! Who is this?!" I pointed angrily at the puzzled man. He had long black hair and smudged eteliner. Blood dripped from his nose like a leaky faucet.
"What do you wa-" I cut short his confusion with a gunshot. He screamed in anguish. He slumpt to the floor, his hand reaching out to her's.
"Oh my gosh! No!" She started sobbing tramatically. "I will kill your love the way you have killed mine," I whispered to him as he lay silent. I put the gun in my pocket and grabbed her by the hair, yanking her up to me.
"I love you, how could you Sarah?" I wrapped my fingers around her small, fragile neck.At first she struggled with all her might. Her mascara was running down her face; tears flooded her eyes.
As her body began to give way to soul she calmly, softly spoke, "Who are you? I don't even know you're name..." With her last breath her voice faded into the screams of my own hysteria.
Suddenly Everything Has Changed - The Postal Service
Hmm...what to say what to say?
As my title expresses, everything has changed, and quite suddenly.
That is not what I want to spend my time thinking about so I will just give a recap:
Kaleb broke up with me on Sept. 7th.
Kaleb started dating Morgan on Sept. 8th.
The last time I saw Kaleb was at least 6 weeks ago, and the last time he talked to me was a week ago. (We rarely speak anymore...)
Steven and I got in a fight on Oct. 26 for many reasons - 1) he told everyone about Kaleb and I, 2) he was telling everyone he wasn't my friend, then telling me he was my friend, and 3) he didn't feel sorry for any of this. (We still aren't speaking.)
Ben and I aren't talking much since our wonderful homecoming (another story another time).
I started dating Jeremy Oct. 27.
Jeremy broke up with me on Nov. 2.
Thats about the main stuff without going into a whole lot of detail. Also, my mother has gone back to working at UPS. Its has its good and bad sides. I get $30 allowance now! I'm starting a tradition now; every weekend I am going to buy a new CD. This weekend I bought Death Cab for Cutie Plans and last weekend I bought Senses Fail EP. Its so cool being able to buy things.
Scottie got his liscense this past weekend and we went bowling with Brian. He's Jeremy and Steven's friend but I think he is really cool so I have kidnapped him and hid him in a box that I carry with me everywhere! Mwahahaha. Lol. Just kidding. Anyway. Then yesterday I went to play Halo 2 @ Brian's with Jeremy and Scottie. I suck though.
Today was the school play, Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dream Coat. It was a musical really. It was like all songs. I sat with Brian and Heather...
Well, I guess thats all because now I'm starting to think of all the things I could tell you about Kaleb...but I'm getting over him so I shouldn't be talking about him. Later.
