Cant You See There Is No Time To Think Selfishly Yesterdays Gone Tomorrows Here Cant Turn Back Now I Wont Quit I Still Love You I Swear I Always Will
Listening to: Penelope / by Pinback (good song...you should give it a listen, but just this song...they're others aren't as good in my opinion)
I talked to Steven earlier today. I was so happy just to say something to him. I don't really even know why it matters so much; after all he did abandon me at a point when I really needed him. I've just missed talking to him so much, and he didn't say anything mean to me.
Ben also called me, but I was so stressed out about my dad that I was talking a lot. And complaining a lot, something that Ben can't really take too much of. Needless to say, our conversation didn't get anywhere fast. We did kind of make things better at the end...except how I ended our phone call talking way too much about a good time I had with a certain someone who isn't who he once was... I'll just tell you what we were talking about:
He asked me if I had the chance to go back and change what I did with Kaleb would I. I said that the first time we did anything no, but after that yes. The first time it was out of passion and innocence. After that it was just his greed getting the best of him. The first time didn't even really feel wrong, it made me feel wonderful inside actually... After that I would have changed everything we did though. Anyway, after that I was talking about the wonderful night we had after we did it.
That night we went to see the Lords of Dogtown (dumb by the way...) and afterwards we were hanging outside the movie theater. I told Kaleb to close his eyes and I put ice down his pants! Lol...I know, so mean. So he starts trying to put ice down my shirt and obviously I start laughing and squirming around. We were standing right by a brick wall, and well, I ran right into it! Funny right?
Well, back to what I was getting at, Ben didn't think it was very funny. He didn't even so much as laugh. I didn't even hear a smile in his voice... Then he said he had to go. I don't get it. I can talk about Michael Baxa is hott, but if I mention having a good time with Kaleb he gets, weird... I guess its because its Kaleb, and I had something with him. I dunno. Or maybe it really didn't matter at all that I was talking about Kaleb and he just wanted to go and it happened to be at that moment. Lol. Anyway...
Now my plan is to stay up as late as possible so I can sleep as long as I can so that I can lay in my bed most of the day until my dad comes to get me. Yay! That was so a run on sentence...aren't those so annoying? Yeah, my brother is having some friends spend the night, Tom Hull and Kyle Aberlat (or however you spell it).
I talked to Steven earlier today. I was so happy just to say something to him. I don't really even know why it matters so much; after all he did abandon me at a point when I really needed him. I've just missed talking to him so much, and he didn't say anything mean to me.
Ben also called me, but I was so stressed out about my dad that I was talking a lot. And complaining a lot, something that Ben can't really take too much of. Needless to say, our conversation didn't get anywhere fast. We did kind of make things better at the end...except how I ended our phone call talking way too much about a good time I had with a certain someone who isn't who he once was... I'll just tell you what we were talking about:
He asked me if I had the chance to go back and change what I did with Kaleb would I. I said that the first time we did anything no, but after that yes. The first time it was out of passion and innocence. After that it was just his greed getting the best of him. The first time didn't even really feel wrong, it made me feel wonderful inside actually... After that I would have changed everything we did though. Anyway, after that I was talking about the wonderful night we had after we did it.
That night we went to see the Lords of Dogtown (dumb by the way...) and afterwards we were hanging outside the movie theater. I told Kaleb to close his eyes and I put ice down his pants! Lol...I know, so mean. So he starts trying to put ice down my shirt and obviously I start laughing and squirming around. We were standing right by a brick wall, and well, I ran right into it! Funny right?
Well, back to what I was getting at, Ben didn't think it was very funny. He didn't even so much as laugh. I didn't even hear a smile in his voice... Then he said he had to go. I don't get it. I can talk about Michael Baxa is hott, but if I mention having a good time with Kaleb he gets, weird... I guess its because its Kaleb, and I had something with him. I dunno. Or maybe it really didn't matter at all that I was talking about Kaleb and he just wanted to go and it happened to be at that moment. Lol. Anyway...
Now my plan is to stay up as late as possible so I can sleep as long as I can so that I can lay in my bed most of the day until my dad comes to get me. Yay! That was so a run on sentence...aren't those so annoying? Yeah, my brother is having some friends spend the night, Tom Hull and Kyle Aberlat (or however you spell it).
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