Stressed to the Max
Whew. Well, I am totally stressed. But thats okay...I guess I'm one of those people who are driven by stress. If I didn't have it I might be bored in life. So anyway. You might be asking, what is stressing you out so bad? Well, my busy summer schedule is one thing. But thats only half of it. There are so many things I need to get done before the end of the school year and only two weeks to do it in! AH!!!I am in serious need of money. I need new clothes for summer. I have NO shorts whatsever...and I don't have money to buy cameras to take pictures!!! And I'm not going to have my yearbook to have people sign, so I have to make something for everyone to sign. Also Steven is acting really weird lately, ditto with Liana. She is acting really freaky since Crissy and Steven started going out. (I think she might be in a denial period about her true feelings for Steven...but thats just a theory.) Also, every Saturday I have to go to fundraisers to raise money for camp...(another issue with money...) Then there are all my freaking dreams about dying that are really starting to get to me.Okay, I’ll tell you the one I had last night because its really weird. Alright, I’m on a ship with a whole bunch of sailors. Its dark and stormy and the water is thick like, blood...but its blackish colored. Then all the sailors keep dying and falling off the ship. The captain is an alien, and there are two sailors left. (I’m just kind of watching all this take place...I think.) There are two candles, and the alien asks one of the sailors to take the small candle and relight the big one because it went out. If the sailor doesn’t relight the candle, there will be NO light. Well, the little candle goes out...and the alien (this thing is hideous, it had a green face with lots of wrinkles and big solid-black eyes) butchers the poor sailor with an ax! Then I wake up. Now don’t tell me dreams like that would not have you stressed out during the day! I don’t even think it counts as SLEEP; its just...being scared to death all night long...The dream I had the night before last night was freaky too. This one I was a character in though. Alright. Its dreary and nighttime in this one too. I don't remember as much about this one as last night's but heres what I do remember: something about an Italian restaurant, ivy (I have no clue...), a witch, a school bus, pioson, and I was Juliet (again..not a clue...). So here's the fragment I remember: I'm sitting on a bus and this witch pulls me out of my seat onto the ile of the bus. Suddenly she stabs me with this long (like 5 foot long) spear with a arrowhead (really big) on the end of it. Stabs me right in the chest. I'm still alive, and so she yanks it out and says, "Just to make sure its dead!" And stabs me again, this time all the way through my body...and yanks it out, tearing my chest to pieces. Then I woke up. Now tell me that is not just freaky?! I don't know where they are coming from...its not like I want to die. I haven't been thinking about it...I just don't know.So anyway, back to real life. Yesterday Kaleb came over to my house...but it was only for like an hour! I was so sad... First we went for a walk and then we came home and ate some strawberries and onion rings. Lol. Then I asked my mom if we could go downstairs...she was really weird about it too. She was like, "I don't know if thats a good idea." I was like, um, okay, I'm just going to sit around and eat the entire time? NO. That would be totally gay. All we ended up doing was hanging out downstairs and as soon as we started watching Grind his mom came. So yeah. I mean, we only kissed like twice. What does my mom think I'm going to do down there? I'm serious, my mom does not know me at all. She is so...ugh, skeptical of me. She should try trusting me for once! Oh, and Kaleb gave me an Emerica shirt, too bad its ginormous! (Kaleb's word...)
Which leads my to the worst news of all...my Biology project, you know...the one I've been working on for weeks?! Well, my stupid floppy disk deleted it!!! Grr. I cannot believe it. So I come to school today with no project, I'm going to have to completely redo it. AHHH!!! So I am facing only getting half credit for something I worked my butt of on!!! How could this happen?! So I start for the bus this morning and I hear the phone ringing. I pick up; its Sam. "My mom is really mad at me Muriel.""Why?""Because I missed to bus. I don't think I'm going to be able to make it to school today."So now I have no project, and no partner.Then I get to school, go into class to tell Mrs. Burnside my horrible news. But guess who is at her desk? A sub. Yep. So I had no project, no partner, and no teacher. Now you may be thinking, why is it such a big deal, your teacher isn't there so its no biggy. Yes it is. She set up a camera so we can still do our projects and she can just grade them later!!! Ah! So yeah. I'm facing 50% now. I'll cry if that happens. Why does it always seem that everything I work so hard for just screw up like this?! So that was my horrible morning. I hope it gets better from here. So there ya go! I'm done...now I can go on being stressed out. Cya.
Busy Summer Schedule
Well, not much has happened today...yet anyway! It is Kaleb and I's 3 month anniversary! Yay! I love him soooo much. He is so sweet and perfect and...just great!
I don't have much to say...I think I want to get something for Kaleb but I have no idea what...oh well...
I can't believe the school year is almost over! My first few weeks of summer are going to be so hectic. I can'tbelieve how much stuff I have going on! And then after that I have nothing to do all summer. Here's a list of all the thing I have to do this summer:
1) See Star Wars Episode III - it comes out the day we get out of school!
2) Kaleb has vacation the 21st through the 28th.
3) Go to Mississippi with church May 30th through June 3rd.
4) Go to my vacation on June 5th through June 14th.
5) Go to Branson with Kaleb I think on the 17th - the 19th.
6) Go to Warped Tour on June 21st.
7) Somewhere in there go to my dad's.
8) And somewhere in there go to Crissy's sleepover party in her new house.
That is a lot of stuff in a few weeks! Then all summer is left to do absolutely nothing! Oh well. Well, cya later!
LATER:
Well...I'm bored...again! I don't have anything to do...I found a website to find any blog about anything - all you have to do is type in a word - but I don't know what to look for now! I wish someone living in Pacific had one so I could read it. Any way though, tonight I think Riley is going to church with Kaleb, that'll be cool.
Today after school Steven kinda put me in a bad mood. He never shows any consideration for me...I mean, he walks over and says, "Hey you!" and expects me to respond! Then I asked him to help me up (I was sitting on the ground) and he gave me this look like, are you kidding? you're gross, and said, "No." It is not like I asked him to go out with me! I just asked him to help me up. Then Liana came out and he just totally forgot about me...Liana never talks to me outside while we're waiting for the buses anymore...which leads me to believe what I hypothesized before: she only wanted to talk to me to make sure she would be around if Steven talks to me, or she only wants to talk to me when the timing is good for HER. I guess she is just too busy for me anymore. Whatever though. I guess I won't let it bother me...
For some reason my AIM is being really gay and is not working - gay! If you know anything about it, please let me know! Well, guess that is all I have to say! Cya.
Definition of Punk
Here's my theory on punk:For years there have been threads on forums about what band isn't "punk" or are "posers" and this is my conclusion:Punk can easily be divided into 3 categories:1) style of clothingThe tradional "punk" clothing is studded belts, mohawks or other hair cuts frowned on by society, leather boots, piercings, tattoos, etc. ANYONE, can wear these clothes; It is not a requirement to listen to punk music or hate the government to wear these clothes. They're just clothes; Whether It's a shout out showing your dislike for popular clothing or not.2) genre of musicPunk music is a fast, eighth-note driven, rough vocaled genre of music that started as an anti-pop culture movment in the '70s. Although it was anti-government then: it doesn't have to be now. It's just music like any other. Anyone can play it: nerds, preps, freaks, whatever.3) thought processThe Punk thought process is the result of bands like NOFX and Anti-Flag using music as a way to give out their opinions of government and what the should do about it. Although these bands preach not bringing down the government but fixing it people still don't get it.None of these need to be combined to work. They can work for anyone.Here's an excerpt from www.wikipedia.com:Punk can have the following meanings:A follower of punk music, fashion or culture. Punk rock, a type of music performed by bands like the Sex Pistols, The Clash, The Damned ... Punk is a set of social and political beliefs, morals and standards that indicate an absolute rejection of conformity, except of course conformity to the narrow range of punk political beliefs, morals and standards, which must be absolute. See Punk ideology. Did you know "punke" means a prostitute in Shakespeare's day?I took this from Steven's live journal because I though it was very insightful (wow, a big word...I know!). I think he got it from a conversation we had the other day. But anyway, I have to give credit where credit is due, and Steven put the ideology of punk very well in these three basic categories. Go Steven!
Well, today was good. Last night Steven and Crissy started going out. Hmm...I knew before Liana and she was freaking out, in a funny way, it was great. I was the one who had to tell her...Nothing much interesting happened though. I made a new bag! Its made of a Journeys bag; I love it! I haven't really sewn the strap on yet...so its taped on! It looks pretty funny.
I don't think Kaleb's dad likes me much. Last night he wasn't allowed to talk to me when I called at 8.30! I was pretty upset. According to Kaleb's grandma, his dad thinks we're going to run off any day and get married! He obviously doesn't know me very well. I would NEVER do something like that. And get this, his dad thinks we spend TOO MUCH time together. How does that work??? We don't even go to the same school! Whatever though. All that matters is that I love Kaleb, and his mother and grandmother love me. So its all good.
I'm thinking maybe of changing my blog back because I don't have anything to be upset about anymore towards Liana or anyone else who would read it. I just didn't want them reading things I say about them when 1) I may not even know it or 2) it was something I wanted to tell them and they read it first! How annoying would that be? Steven is in a really good mood lately, so I am happy for him. Today he was pretty nice to me. I can't wait to talk to Kaleb...its already 5 o'clock...I miss him so bad. I wish he would call!!!
Mom and George are fighting again...it was about how my dad a few weekends ago ate some food outside at our house! Isn't that ridiculous? George is so...I don't know the word to describe it...why should he care? He never even comes home anymore...he always goes to his parents! It doens't make any sense...
And he is constantly yelling at my mom because she doesn't punish Gavin enough for the 'bad' things he does...and he lets Cassie skip school! Does that even sound right? And its not like he just gets mad with my mom, he freaks out on her! I think its verbal abuse. I wish I could give George a piece of my mind. But if I did it wouldn't help...he wouldn't care and my mom would hate me...But does it make any sense? Last I heard Cassie dropped out of high school (shes only a junior!!!) and is getting married! But no, George thinks that sitting in the bathroom at church is so much worse! Cassie doesn't even GO to church.
She is such a spoiled brat and if she ever moves back here I am NOT going to be goody goody to her. To me she is not a sister. A sister would not put all her siblings and her family through what she has put us through. And it doesn't even affect her! Its so not fair. I bet she doesn't even know what she has done. She has caused us so much pain....
Anyway though. I could go on about that all day long. I just try not to think about it because it is just SOOO unfair. I think thats about all that has happened today. Oh, and about my 'best weekend ever'. I might get around to finishing it, but it was just such a good weekend that I don't feel like writing about it. I'll just keep that to remind me of it I guess! Oh, and pretty soon I think I am going to put some pictures in here soon! Stay tuned. Cya!
My Fabulous Weekend!!! Lol... (INCOMPLETE)
INCOMPLETEThis weekend was just what I needed to get over my horrible week. I can't really say much because class is over, so I'll have to add more at a later date. (MY COMPUTER GOT SPYWARE AGAIN!!! GAY!!!)
Any wayz though, what I did this weekend:
1) Went to Six Flags with Kaleb, Riley, Michael, and these two chicks from St. Clair.
2) I went to church with Kaleb.
3) I went to the band's recital...with Kaleb!
4) I went to Kaleb's Grandma's after that.
Get the picture? It was so much fun though. I loved it!!! We got in a few agruements...
1) alcohol
2) cussing
3) I hit him in the balls...not nice, I know...
So that wasn't cool...but besides that it was a lot of fun!!!
So I guess I will talk more about it when my stoopid computer is fixed, or next time I have keyboarding! Cya!
LATER:
I'm ba-ack! Lol. Okay, so I'll get on with it already!
Six FlagsSix Flags was a lot of fun. At first it was just Riley, Kaleb, and I...and it was kind of boring...at least, it seemed like they were bored...so I was too.
Totally Sucky Week
Hmm...lets think. Okay, my day started out funny. I hung out with David, Brett, and Paul in the band room this morning. I look up at the clock and it says 7.34. I'm like, "Paul, is the clock wrong? Did the bell already ring?" Then the bell rings. And I was like, perfect timing, guess the clock is 5 minutes off. But I walk into the hallway and to my suprise no one is there! Crap. So I hurry to class. Go in and sit down.
Then Mr. Kappeller says, "Where were you Muriel?"
I say, "I was in the band room and the music was really loud. I didn't hear the first bell."
Then he says, "That is a very good excuse. Too bad its not true. Everyone I think that is the best excuse I have ever heard. Thats one you should all write down."
I was like, "No, that really -" And he cut me off! He didn't believe me! He basically called me a liar in front of everyone and insulted my honesty. Two things really insult me: insulting my intelligence and insulting my honesty. I was really upset for a while.
In History Steven and I just weren't getting along very well. It just, was not a good day. I think the truth is that I am jealous. I am jealous that Steven and Liana finally broke up and he still isn't any nicer to me or cares about me any more than before. I was expecting him to. I thought the only reason he acted the way he did was to prove to Liana he didn't need me. But now he likes Crissy! What kind of mistake is that? I've been waiting for my chance to be good friends again, and yet again another one of my friends gets in the way of it! Now I keep getting jealous when he wants to call her and not me, go places with her and not me...you know. I don't LIKE him, but I still feel really close to him and the fact that it is not reciprocated kills me. It just makes me feel like everyone I care for doesn't care for me as much! Ugh.
I think Liana is jealous about Crissy too. She came up to me in ac lab and was like, "Don't you think its funny that Crissy likes Steven again and Steven likes her too?" It is pretty ironic though...I think that Steven is just in denial and needs someone to have a crush on. And I would not take it too lightly when my best friend liked my boyfriend while I was going out with him, because thats exactly what Crissy did. And thats EXACTLY what Liana did to Crissy. I think I should get away from them. Thats a recipe for drama. I still say it reminds me of insest. I think its retarded. I wish we could all just be friends.
Those are the main things that made my week go completely downhill. Then there were the millions of little things that just annoyed the heck out of me. I'm going to Six Flags with Kaleb tomorrow. Yes! My crappy week will finally be over! I'm waiting for him to call...he was supposed to at 7.30...its 8 now...whatever. I'm sure he is busy. Jeez. I cannot get Relient K out of my head! It like, brainwashed me!
Well, right now I think thats all I have to say. I'm sure I'll have a lot to say after tomorrow. Yay! I think Riley is supposed to be going, and Michael Moore is going. Hmm...I bet Kaleb won't be able to talk tonight because his stupid friend Frog is over. I hate him. He is such a jerk to me. And plus he doesn't like me...ever since te first time we went out. Well, guess I'm gonna go! Cya.
The Makings of a Very Bad Day
Hmm, well, I got to see Kaleb last night! I already miss him. Now that I have a little more privacy to my blog...I'll tell you what I've been wanting to let out for a while now. If I would've been able to talk about it earlier, I could connect all the strange coincidences that have been happening. So here goes:
Lately some weird things have been happening to me. First was the strange stomach cramps that wouldn't go away for weeks. I mean, weeks. Scott started making fun of me saying I was 'pregnant' and stuff. Then I missed my monthly...yep. But it had happened a few times before...so I didn't think much of it. Then I started aching all over...Then the big thing: I miraculously gained about 10 lbs. in 2 weeks. It scared me to death. I still don't know what happened but my weight is starting to go back to normal...
I also thought a name if I have a baby boy, just out of no where, an odd thing to happen don't you think? Its Van. Isn't that an awesome name? I know that no other child would have that name. He would be unique, different, like me. I love my name. So if I ever have a child thats what I will name him...lol. If my husband lets me!!!
Okay, so today...This morning I woke up late. Actually, two minutes after I was supposed to be at the bus stop! So I hurried up and I actually didn't miss the bus.
All day Steven chased Liana around. But the strange thing is he kept like, saying hi to me every time he saw me...but then he'd either make fun of me or go run away when Liana came. (Whether it was to be with her or not have her see him with me I do not know...)
And I had a really bizarre dream...I don't remember it much...but I remember I was in Mr. Kappeller's class...and we were trapt in it. Then it kind of transformed...into a house. I think we were all starving. I remember we were dying, or something very threatening was in there with us. And we couldn't get out. We couldn't escape. It was very scary. I don't remember who all was in it, but a bunch of kids. I remember we were trying so hard to find a way to get out. We were nearly about to die. Something to do with posioning, but I can't remember why. But something happened I think and we lived. Just in the nick of time too. At least thats what I think. And thats all I really remember. And I remember this clearly, my teacher Mrs. Flamion was dressed in some black uniform thing - and this i remember - she was a guy! Lol. She walked in and said she had a sex change. Lol. So I guess I had some humor in my dream!
I've come to a conclusion about my friendships with Steven and Liana. Now, I don't know this for sure, but it sure seems like it to me. Steven only wants to be around me when he is bored, needs something, or wants to make fun of and pick on someone to make himself feel better. That is all he ever does to me. I used to think he was just kidding...but why? Its not funny half the time...and he doesn't treat anyone else like that. I just don't get it; I wish I had answers...
And Liana...ever since her and Steven broke up, it seems like she doesn't talk to me or call or anything anymore...I feel stupid and unwanted in her presence. She never talks to me after school anymore, and she used to nearly every afternoon when her and Steven were together. Now what would that lead you to believe? Well...I'll tell you it makes me feel like I was being used. A way to keep track of his ex without seeming hostile. its brilliant! Pretend to be my best friend so I will be loyal and not try to take him from her. Or maybe she was just using me to complain to about Steven, because it seems like now that she has nothing to complain about, she doesn't ever talk to me.
The rassional side of me knows neither of these are true but I just had to get out my feelings. It seems like the more I consider and talk about my irrasional thoughts the more they become rediculous. So there you go. Lol.
Well, I just read Crissy's (one of my good friends) blog's and she said she was really happy because she likes Steven...and he likes her back! This is too much drama for me. Its like insest or something. Gross. I mean, how many times do you have to like the same guys/girls and go out with them before you realize its not worth it?! Liana finally came to her senses and broke up with Steven (She was dragging it out for ever and it was upsetting me very badly. Steven does not deserve that!). Now Crissy likes him again. Why?! I think I'm kinda jealous because I want Steven to care about me the way he does them. Not like me, but in a friend way, which I guess isn't possible. I want him to want to hang around me the way he does them. I care about him so much, but he cares about me so little. I think its just jealousy...but also, they are kinda stupid. But its their lives I guess. I'll never have to go through that because I have Kaleb! I love him. He makes up for my lack of friends caring by 200%! Lol.
I think I have friendship issues. I'm so paranoid that at any moment all my friends will just drop everything and hate me. It used to happen so now I'm always afraid it will happen. I constantly need reassurence about whether or not they care about me. I'm praying it will fade as I get older, but I don't see it happening.
Well, I am finally done. I think thats it. So I'll type more tomorrow. I like it so much more that I don't have to be afraid of upsetting my friends. Cya!
Sorry But I Changed My Address
I decided I wanted to change my address because there are private things that I want to talk about...well, that would be an oxy moron. There are things that I don't want my friends to read and lately they have been reading this. This is supposed to be where I can let all my feelings out, and lately I have not been able to do that. So I hope they don't find this. Lol. But if you guys do, I want you to know it is your fault if you read this. This is where I let my feelings out and I deserve somewhere to put my feelings.
What an Idiot / Welch's Grape Juice Sucks
MORNING NEWS:
This just in from ... uh ... me:
I walk into English this morning and I'm sitting there talking to Heather. Normal. Then I look in my bag and I see my cell has one new message. How interesting. I open my phone and it says one new voice message. Cool! So I call my voice mail and its Kaleb! Could he be any more sweet? He calls me in the morning just to say I love you. How sweet. Then I listen to the message: "Hi Muriel...blah blah...so I'm going to call your house phone now. Love you. Bye."
Me: "What?! Why is he calling my house phone at 7 in the morning when I'm at school?!"
So I call it again and sure enough, he was calling my house phone...my mom hasn't said anything about it yet, thank goodness. I was really freaked out! I was like, omg, he is so perfect (bragging to Heather). Then I'm like, omg! he is such an idiot!!! Lol.
Anyway, that was this morning's drama. Steven took back his Ipod...mmm...and I ate his twinkie. Lol. (The one I was supposed to give him for letting me borrow his Ipod.) He keeps saying he's never going to let me borrow it again, but I know he doesn't mean it. Today in History he was calling me fat! But I know he doesn't mean that either. Lol. I try not to take anything he says seriously anymore...and after school he came up to me, called me a loser, and walked off. At first I was angry, I mean, what kind of friend just comes up and calls you a loser then walks off??? But whatever...I just kept thinking, I'm going to see Kaleb tonight! Yay! (It's a Wednesday!!!)
So...this morning I got to school really late because there was major traffic...it was bad. Some people didn't get in until about 8.15! Besides that not much happened today...not that I remember anyway... Gosh, I know there was something that I'm forgetting! I hate that! I'm so bored...
Did you know that Welch's Grape Juice has no nutrients but sugar (if you count that...)? My dad was buying us all sodas and I wanted grape juice so I would get some vitamins in and stuff. But no! No nutrients whatsoever! Its says 45% juice...so where'd the nutrients go? I don't know, it is a mystery to me. But it makes me mad. I could've just had soda and had just as much sugar! I do like the taste, but what a jip.
Besides that though, nothing happened! Guess I'll update tomorrow. Cya.
P.S.
Steven: I put my name on here so I guess it is piont less to 'hide' my identity. One main reason I put that was so if my mom ever ran across the site, she wouldn't see my name and be tempted to read. But I guess its piontless. Happy? Oh well. Plus my name is better!
Ipod!!! Yay! / Kaleb's Grandma's V
IN KEYBOARDING:Hmm...I just found out last night that Steven and Liana broke up. I feel terrible because yesterday I was going on and on to Steven about how he is obsessed and has undying love for Liana, and they were broken up! Why don't people tell me these things? Poor guy. I'm so happy though! Today he is letting me borrow his Ipod and he burned me a cd. Its ironic because my favorite song on the last cd he gave me was a song by this band and I didn't know it! And it happens to be a band that is christian...and David likes them! Lol...
I had a dream with him and Ben in it last night...it was weird. We were on our way to go to David's church tonight and instead we went swimming at a pool...I don't know. Lol. Actually it was a bad dream because I made out with Ben in it! Grr...why do I keep having these gay dreams? I want a dream with Kaleb. He's the one I love!
Today is good so far. Did I tell you yesterday that Steven dyed his hair...BLACK. Yeah...its weird...but I guess I can get used to it. I think it looks better than blonde anyway...Lol. Well, yesterday he wore a brown shirt and I think he would look better with a black shirt. I haven't taken a good look at him today so I'll have to decide what I think later.
Well, I think the weight crisis is almost over. My weight is going back to normal. I weigh uh, 129 now...I used to weigh 120...so I was freaking out when a few weeks later I stepped on to find I was 131! Then it kept going up! But finally it went back down...I don't know what was going on...it was driving me crazy...I was afraid I had a weird disease or something!
Well, thats all I have to say I guess. Cya later! Oh, I hung up some of our posters today. VOTE FOR MOSHER AND GOMEZ!!! Lol. Cya!
LATER:I just got back from Kaleb's Grandma's (V) again! It was so much fun. I was supposed to go to church tonight with David tonight, well, first I asked him and he said there wouldn't be ROOM to pick me up. Then he called me after school and said Melissa wasn't going so he COULD take me...but then my mom said she was going to group tonight so I told David I couldn't go. Then my mom tells me that she isn't going to group tonight. I can't get ahold of David so I was like, this sucks. Then Kaleb calls and asks if I can come over...and I said I don't know because I was trying to get ahold of David. Then I finally got ahold of Ben and he was sad because Melissa couldn't go to church with him. I asked him to have David pick me up, but then Kaleb called back and I ended up going to his Grandma's house! Yay! Lol...and that all happened in about uh, 20 minutes...yeah...Lol.
Well, actually that was after I got home from my walk...I love that Ipod...but Steven doesn't have very many whole cds on there. Only a few songs by a bunch of people. I don't really like that. But I still like it. And I LOVE Relient K! And its a plus that they're Christian...I tried to go down to the railroad tracks...but there were so many bugs! Lol.
At Kaleb's grandma's we just hung out. His dad sent him a letter...I felt really awkward because his dad has never contacted him and ... I don't know, he was emailing him right in front of me and I thought something like that would be more private. And we roasted marshmellows and hung out in the creek thing and killed those pre-dandelion-thingies. It was fun! Lol. He is sooo sweet. Hmm...well, I think that is about all that happened...and ODO (obvious details omitted)...Lol. Cya!
What A Great Day!!!
Sorry it took so long for me to write again...we finally got the spyware off my computer...But I was right, before it was all over my mom did blame it on me. Well, she didn't say, "Its your fault the spyware is on the computer!" In fact, she did say that it wasn't my fault...but she did say it was my fault the computer was going slow...I don't really know the difference. But oh well...I don't feel like talking about that.
Anyway, over the weekend I went to Dad's...not much happened. Kaleb went to Six Flags with Riley and Michael and Crissy and some other people...at first he scared me because he said Crissy was going out with Riley! Lol. But it turns out Riley is going out with Erica...again...whew. I wish Kaleb would call, I miss him.
Today I helped Liana and Ben make campaign posters...it was so much fun! I love having purpose and helping people. I just finished them up about an hour ago. I noticed in Liana's live journal she had a comment towards me that I think as students we should be lazy. That isn't what I said, but oh well. I'm so happy with my life right now I really don't feel like caring about unimportant comments like that. Lets just drop it okay Liana? Thanks!
And she kinda made me feel like crap today when I said Mrs. Burnside didn't write we needed to Ch. 16 vocab on the board and she said, "Well, she probably did..." I am not a liar. It wasn't up there. I checked just so I would know for sure that she didn't assign it. And I did it anyway. But thats not the piont. Liana, you basically called me a liar. I figure you were in a bad mood though so I forgive you. I'm sure I act like that too sometimes. Good luck with the election!
Nothing else that interesting happened today. It still seemed like a really good day though! I'm so happy. Steven is making me a Relient K cd tonight, its gonna be awesome! Its ironic because David brought it to school today and I wanted to ask him if I could borrow it so bad...but I didn't know what he'd say so I didn't...Then Steven brought them up today and I'm getting the cd tomorrow! AND...AND Steven is letting me borrow his Ipod tomorrow! I can't wait. Its gonna be so awesome...I just wish it was for more than a day.
Well, I have to work on my Biology project so I've gotta go. (Did I mention I hate Mrs. Burnside, my Biology teacher? Well, I do...grr!)
The Past Few Days
Hmm...so, Liana and I are okay now...I was really scared at first that she was going to be really mad at me. Yay! Now I am campaigning her and Ben for President and Vice president. I bought some posters and stuff...its gonna be awesome. I'm working on it with Heather. I'll give ya updates on that later!
I have so many things to say, but I can't remember anything that happened yesterday! I went to church on Wednesday. I was so happy to see Kaleb! I won't get to see him this weekend because I am going to Dad's.
Wednesday night Mom was annoying me so bad. After church was over we went straight home because, listen to this, because George called her, in service, mad because she didn't have his food out for him! Is it that hard to get your own food?! No. I asked Mom, "Doesn't George know how to use a microwave?" And she was like, "That isn't the piont Muriel, church is over and we need to get home." I understand that church is over and its time to go home. And I understand that George wants a meal when he gets home because he does work a 14 hour job, but in the middle of a church service?! When he knows where she is? Plus, I know there is tons of food in our house. It isn't that hard once a week to make your own meal. He doesn't even come home every night! Grr... Why would someone let themselves be control like that? I never want to be in a relationship like that...
Anyway, the Spyware is still on my computer...I think my mom is trying to blame it on me. I know its not MY fault...stuff happens, come on. What can you do? Nothing. Omg, yesterday Mom freaked out about one of the kids leaving a yogurt on the table. It was in the box. I remembered walking in and seeing it and I asked Gavin, "Are all the yogurts gone already?" (We just got those yesterday!) And he said yes. Then I sat down to watch a movie. I told Mom that and she was like, "We didn't you throw the box away then?!" Then she was even more mad. Then she asked me again and I was just like, "I'm just stupid Mom. I don't know." Then she was like, yelling some more. I mean, what am I supposed to say?! Why do people forget to do things? Because they forget...there is no REASON. We're just stupid like that. Parents make no sense.
I talked to Ben last night...it seems like all my best friends aren't even important any more...well, not unimportant...just, it seems like we don't even talk anymore! I guess we just don't have anything to say...this computer is going so slow its annoying! Grr...
Yesterday I went for a walk. It is so pretty outside. I wish I had a camera...the awesome purple trees and blue wildflowers. I went down to the train tracks. I think I'm gonna make that my little 'secret' place. Its so awesome. So succluded. I tried to draw a tree...but I don't think it looked that good. Well, I guess thats all thats happened. Cya!
This Sucks
Man, last night sucked! My computer got spyware on it so now it is like super super slow and gets tons of stupid pop ups! Grr...I'm listening to the CD Steven gave me a few days ago...
I hope Liana isn't really mad at me for what I said about her, I was just blowing off steam...maybe I should change my address so people I know can't read this because I mainly use this to blow off steam. If all my friends read it I might affend them when I don't really mean to.
I get to see my boyfriend tonight! Yay! Oh, David was telling me about his 'soul mate' this morning. She thinks he is hott apperently. I'm happy for him though! He deserves a nice girl anyways. My arm hurts really bad so I guess I'm gonna stop. And I have a lot of math to do. I'll try to update tonight if my computer stops being gay. Cya!
My Apology To Liana
Liana, I did not mean to affend you with what I said. I did not say, "God, Liana is such a bitch," did I? No. And yeah, I was just talking about my day. I was saying you were just acting weird lately. Thats just the way I took what you said. I was kinda overreacting anyway since I had such a crappy day. If it does affend you though, I'll stop saying things about you in here, k? Leave a comment please! Sorry!!! - Muriel
What A Crappy Day
Whoa...that was close...my mom was standing right behind the computer when I logged on! I hope she didn't seen the 'Things That Bug Me About My Mother' thingie! Gosh. I just took a retarded IQ test, and I only got a 127! My mom got a 129. I know I'm smarter than that. I am definately retaking that stupid thing.
Any way though. Today was a kinda crappy day. We finished our Terra Nova testing today due to someone in 5th hour who said they're rather just get it done all in one day! Who would want that?! As students it is insulting to think someone would want to get it over with in one freakin day! Ugh. I mean, come on. 3 hours of testing? I tought it was probably Liana or Ben because the always have something to say.
Then Steven went and told Liana I said that. She was acting pretty weird today...actually, she's been acting weird lately. Last week I was complimenting Steven's hair, saying it looked nice now that all the blond was gone. Then she stepped in, "Well, I think it looks better with blonde in it." She paused and said, "Thats all that matters, right Steven?" I mean, doesn't that sound a little, weird? Especially for Liana. Then today whe Steven told Liana that I think she was affended...then she said, "At least we get extra cookies in one day." And I said, "Mr. Kappeller said we weren't getting anymore." And then she got all offensive about it, "Well, thats Mr. Kappeller. Mrs. Boyer is the one in charge." And she was, I don't know, WEIRD, about it. (And it ended up I was right, no cookies. Hah.)
So thats how my day started crappy. Now my sister is totally stressing me out because she is being a freakin elephant and stampeding around the house because her friend is outside and she has to do her chores. Its killing me. I'm gonna listen to some music. Hold on. Lol. Like you can tell...
Another crappy thing that happened was Erika was sick, so the two classes I wasn't testing in, I had no one to talk to really! Ac Lab was fun though because Heather and I were learning how to draw rooms in 3-D and make it look like you were sitting in the picture. It was fun. Lol. I love being a nerd!
Lunch was pretty funny. We had A lunch - arg! I hate my retarded brother, I'm trying to chill out and he is just makin it worse, what a fag, now he's stomping like a hippo! - anyway. We had A lunch so we didn't know where to sit...and I didn't get to sit with David! At lunch I took a bite of a rotten apple because Heather dared me to. And she dared me to take it over and set it on Steven Maxwell's table. Lol. Steven handed it to Paul, then Paul gave it to Kayla, who freaked out and threw it across the lunch room! It was great.
This morning wasn't that bad either. I hung out with David...and he asked me if I wanted to go to church with him tonight! He was gonna pick me up and everything! But Mom is going to Group tonight...so no David for me...oh well. Now I get to talk to Kaleb instead, the love of my life! Lol. I hope I can go sometime with him though.
Well, I think that is about it...I drew a picture of Steven today! I'm gonna try to scan it and put it on here. Hold on! Well I don't think its gonna work...I drew an awesome tree today too! The best ever. It doen't even look like I drew it... This picture I found on the internet inspired me to draw again. It is so cool and abstract but real at the same time.
Now that is really all I have to say. And Krystal text me last night a 10.30 to say she pierced her belly...make any sense? Not really because I haven't talked to her in months...oh well. Cya!
Steven is Such a Butt Sometimes!!!
Well, now that I'm done with telling you all about my mother, lol, I can tell you about the nothingness that was today.As you can tell, today was pretty boring. I didn't do much of anything. I just put a stat counter on my blog...this morning was pretty good. Lol. I drooled because I was trying to talk to Brett with a mint in my mouth...not to smart. I know they're gonna hold that against me forever now! Lol. It was pretty funny though...Steven was being a little bit of a jerk today. He offered to make me a cd this weekend and to me it was a huge deal. He was doing something for me without me asking him to! But then when I asked him for it this morning he was like, "This is passing time. And I'm passing, so you can't have it right now." How gay is that?! Duh, its passing time, thats when I'm supposed to get it from you! But I didn't care.Then I go to my locker after Biology to put my book in my locker. Steven comes up, "Here's you cd." Obviously I could not take it right at the moment because I was kinda busy (I have a freakin bottom locker for cryin out loud!). So I told him to hold it for a minute. Which he refused. So I was getting ticked off. All he needed to do was hold it for a second! So I put it in his hoodie and said hold on! Then he was like, "Well, then you just don't get it." And he put it in his back pack. I was really upset. Why does he do stupid things like that? But I got over it quick because for once, I have something Steven can never corrupt or turn against me or take from me. Kaleb. So I was like, screw him. Then at the end of the day he gave me the cd. I still think he is a jerk. I don't know if he was trying to make up with me or something, but I want a real apology because I am sick of being treated like that.Besides that though, today was okay. Ben forgot to call me tonight...and he forgot to call me over the weekend. But I guess I don't care. It doesn't matter. Kaleb went to some skater place wit Frog (James). He said he might buy me a 'skater' shirt. I would like one, but I really don't like him spending all his money on me...I feel bad. But I am so spoiled! I love it! Lol.I waited up till 11 last night for him to call me. He finally did; it took everything in me not to answer the phone though. I would have been in SO much trouble. But he is so perfect he left me a message in my voice mail! I was praying he would say I love you or something so I could get some sleep and sure enough, he did exactly what I wanted! He is so great. He's supposed to call me when he gets back.It seems like he is always get in trouble when I call him. Maybe I should stop and just let him always call me. That way I don't get him into trouble. Well...I think thats about all that happened today...tomorrow we are reading Romeo and Juliet! I can't wait. I have never actually read or seen anything Romeo and Juliet. I've only heard what other people have said about it, so I am excited. I love learning something new. I'm such a nerd.
Now that is REALLY all I have to say. So I'll cya later! COMMENT PLEASE!!! Lol.
Don't Mothers Just Annoy You Sometimes???
My mom...ugh. There are so many things she does that are just so annoying me right now. So I guess I'll vent. I come home from school and me and my brother are watching Rugrats Go Wild. Well, my mom is sleeping and she comes up and she is like, "Gavin, you need to clean out your cage (hamster) because it stinks." We just sit there, and he was probably just gonna clean it later. My mom comes back like, 15 minutes later and says, "Gavin, go clean out that cage because it smells really bad."
So Gavin gets up to clean it and pauses the movie. I say, don't pause it, Aaron and I wanna watch it. I told him it was his job to clean the cage and he should've done it before, so we weren't gonna wait. (I asked my mom for a hamster and she said, "Maybe when we move. We don't have the money right now." My brother and sister have hamsters...Get the picture?) Then my mom chimes in, "You need to do your chores to. You guys always wait till the last minute to do your chores. Why ..." Blah, blah, blah.
First of all its not fair because I'm doing my chores while Gavin isn't even doing his chores! And second, we don't ALWAYS wait till the last minute to do our chores! Yesterday I even wrote I'd better do my chores before she yells at me. Remember? Exactly.
And today, did she even bother to ask? No. She just started lecturing! Does she really think that makes me want to do things for her? It doesn't. And thirdly, my little sister Kate wanted to go outside and my mom gave her classic no, "When everyone is done with their chores." What the heck does that mean??? Kate doesn't have chores yet, so whats she supposed to do? Wait for everyone else...That not even close to fair.
All that does is breed hate among us, because Kate is going to get mad at Gavin and Paige if they don't hurry up. How is that supposed to work? And I bet you all the money I have that my mom is down in her room on the phone. And she always patronizes me for being on the phone "ALL THE TIME". Uh huh. I swear. Sometimes she makes no sense. I do think shes a good mom, but sometimes she just doesn't get the big picture.
Okay, weird little thing she corrects Aaron with: he runs around the house saying he is a little goofy goober (Spongebob Movie) and she says, "No, you are not a goofy goober. You are a nice little boy." I mean, who cares? What does that matter?! She hasn't gotten mad about it, YET, but I think she will. Shouldn't she be more worried about letting cursewords slip out of her own mouth? That is definitely more important to me.
Another stupid thing she says, "You guys are the laziest kids I've ever seen. You never do what I tell you and you do a half-a** job (Haven't we all heard that one?) on everything." First of all, the only kids shes ever seen the real side of is us, so how would she know?! Second of all, I have seen so many houses with fewer kids than us who have a WAY messier house. Ours is one of the cleanest I've ever seen. So she has nothing on us there.
Now, I don't want you to get the wrong impression. I love my mom. And she isn't as bad as some others I've heard of, but I'm just blowing off steam. Sometimes the things she does just don't make sense. And I just wanted somewhere to state my opinion so it doesn't get lost in the midst of the kinda brainwashing parents can do sometimes. One day I'm going to print these off so I can remember my childhood and hopefully not repeat the same dumb mistakes. Just wanted to make my reason for writing this clear. I am not just dissing my mom for fun or something. Lol. Well, that's all I have to say for now.
Six Flags - II / Kaleb's Grandma's IV
This was one of the best weekends I've had in a long time. Yesterday I went to Six Flags with Kaleb, Riley, Jeremy, Felicia, and Crissy. Later on we met up with Kyrial Flowers and Travis Gann (lol - I know...). But anyway...
First Kaleb picked me up at about...uh, 11.30. We dropped his friend Michael Moore off at his house in Pacific, and went to White Castle to grab a bite to eat. Kaleb's mom asked me if my family and I were going to her graduation party...and I felt horrible because I didn't think it was too intellegent. I mean, what if my mom didn't like his family? She doesn't even officially 'know' Kaleb and I are going out because if she doesn't like him (which could be for anything...) then she may never let me hang out with him again!
Feelings About My MotherNothing against his family...or him...just I think my mom is very judgemental...and if she doesn't like anything about him she may just refuse to let me see him again. So I guess hurting his family's feelings is worth it. There are so many examples of my mom not letting me hang out with people because SHE doesn't think they are good enough. No one is PERFECT! Come on. But I guess she doens't realize that. And she doesn't even know these people.We have these neighbors and one of them is a convicted rapist. And before you jump to conclusions and say, "Oh my gosh!" step back and think about how hypicritical and judgemental that is. Yes, it is scary. And yes, its not the best type of person to have for a neighbor. But do you know how many people my mom has gossipped about this too? Even people who have nothing to do with it and it is none of their business! These poor people are being gossipped about day and night by Mom. Its not fair to them. And at another veiwpoint...isn't gossipping like the opposite of our religon?! Why are we even going to church if she defies it constantly??? I don't understand it. People like that just bother me. There is no need to talk about people like that, especially when you don't even know them! What if he did it when he was eighteen and he is a totally different person now? You never know! And why not invite them to church with us??? Why do we have to look down on them and outcast them?! They are our neighbors...they are only human. Some people are just so inconsiderate and think about no one but themselves. I wish my mom would just take the time to look at herself. Ugh. But I got WAY off subject.Back to my day with Kaleb...So we went into Six Flags...he paid for me. He is the BEST boyfriend ever. - - Omg...my mom is right now talking about whether we are folding the clothes like she TOLD us to this morning. Which I didn't even hear her...Gavin just came in and told me. Why does she assume we know everything? All she has to do is just ask...we will do stuff if she would just bother to ask nicely. But she never does...she has to yell. Does she think that makes us listen more or something??? I know with me it just ticks me off and makes me want to REBEL. I really hope I remember these things when I get older. Well, I guess I'll go fold them because even though what I say is true, I doubt she'll ever listen or understand. So I might as well just do it before she starts yelling. BRB. - - Wow...it took like 30 minutes to fold those clothes.
Anyway. We went and hung out with everyone...and it was fun.
The Long FlumeThe only thing that really sticks out in my memory though is the first time we went on the long flume (now called, The Splash...lol.). So, we split up in groups of 3. Kaleb, Riley, and I all rode in one together. Kaleb wanted the back, I was going to sit in the middle, and Riley was going to sit in the front. But when we got in Riley sat in the back because it was the only place that wasn't wet. Well, I did not want two guys sitting basically on top of each other, so I sat in the middle. Well, Kaleb thought it was funny to lay on me! He was squooshing me onto Riley! (How many boyfriends would want that?!) Anyway...for a while I tried to sit up, but I just gave up. So Kaleb and I were squashing Riley. (Lol...I bet he was hurting...cuz you know how you sit on the long flume right?) Well, then I thought it was funny to start elbowing Riley 'there'...lol. I'm so evil...hehe. Well, that is my story about the long flume.Besides that it was just a fun time. Kaleb said he really enjoyed seeing his old friends again, so I'm happy for him. Riley said it was fun too. I'm glad because most of my guy friends think Kaleb is annoying, I'm glad someone doesn't! Then afterward Kaleb's grandma took us home, well, Riley anyway. Then Kaleb and I went to his grandma's house.Kaleb's Grandma's - IV( I - with Scottie and Kaleb)
( II - for Jacob's birthday)
( III - after Six Flags I)
( IV - after Six Flags II)
Lol, I'm such a nerd. I just put that so I would remember how many times I went and stuff...I don't know. Anyway, I'll get on with it. What we do at his grandma's...
First we went riding in the ... what was it called ... the polaris? I don't know, but to me it looked like a lil golf cart. So we get in and his grandma - Pat - was showing us how to drive it. She says, give it a lil gas. So he gives it a lil gas...and its in reverse! He ran right into the garage! Lol. I was starting to think...do I really want to let him drive this? So we get on the rode, its a gravel one, and he is driving right in the center! Who does that??? What if some maniac came at 50 down that rode and around a turn...right into us! But besides being completely paranoid, it was fun. Then we went over this creek, but to me it looked like a hole, so I was freaking out about that too. Then we came back and we went to the woods...with omitted obvious details...lol. Dude, we were right up by the highway...except about 50 ft. above it. Lol. We were right next to a rode sign and everything. It was awesome. But Kaleb is afraid of heights, I think its kinda cute.After that we went back to Pat's, lol, that sounds so weird. Oh well. We went upstairs and hung out in the pool room. (With obvious details omitted. From now on I'm gonna put ODO for short.) We listened to some George Theorgood (but I don't know how to spell his name). Oh my gosh, we went downstairs and Kaleb wanted to take a sip of his grandma's vodka! I was like, no way. Not my boyfriend, and certainly not around me. I was not gonna put up with a boyfriend that drinks. I know his whole family does it, and maybe when its apropriate, but then was NOT apropriate. So he didn't. I couldn't believe he'd even try to drink around me. Lol.
And that was the entire day in a nutshell. Well, actually, then I got home and waited for him to call. And I talked to Riley. Then I called Kaleb and he got in trouble for me calling after nine. Oh well. And that was my day, yay!
Its almost midnight...I'm so bored. And tired. Well, my mind is exhausted, but my body just keeps going... I'm waiting for Steven to update his 'website'. Jeremy is going nuts with it...its a lil stupid of him though because he has no theme for it. He's just like, go look at my awesome site! But what is the point? There isn't one.
Hmm...so anyway...I would tell you about what happened with Ben in English...but it's kinda stupid and pointless so I won't. I'm going tomorrow! I'm so happy. I cannot wait! Yes!
Omg...when Riley got back from my house with Steven and Scott he was talking to me on the internet. The first thing he said to me was, when did you get your braces off? You look better. I was like, omg...is he trying to hit on me or something? Maybe he was just being nice. Then he said I should call him again sometime. I think I shouldn't because what if he was hitting on me? I have a boyfriend now...and Riley is one of those guys who can never make up there mind. If we were put together...or even associated too much, I think I might end up doing something stupid. I'm glad Kaleb is going with us tomorrow! Well, I'm tired...so g'night!
Hmm...Not much to say about today. It was just another day. Just listening to Five For Fighting...and being bored. Kaleb is at The Mills skateboarding tonight with his friends...he is just now having his birthday 'get together' thingie. Yeah, tomorrow we are going to Six Flags for sure now...thats what we're doing together for his birthday. I wish I could get ahold of him because I told Riley that Kaleb's grandma would take him home...and I didn't even ask Kaleb about it...I figured she wouldn't mind though because Riley lives like a block away from her. Lets hope.
Gosh. I am so stressed today. I need a quiet place to relax. Everyone is being loud and dropping things and the computer keeps making all these really loud, unexpected noises and it is scaring the crap out of me. Is that how you spell scaring? I don't know. Gosh. People are being so annoying. I'm listening to one of my favorite songs and - - omg! Scott just drove over here! Lol. With Riley and Steven. All by himself. Their a bunch of idiots...omg. I was so suprised though. Man, that was weird. Well, I guess that is all I have to say for right now.
Oh, when I come back from eating dinner I have to tell you about the thing with English and been.
I got to go to church yesterday. I was so happy to see Kaleb! It was kind of awkward though...I don't know why. Just, his stupid friend Richard was there and I just don't like him. Plus he wanted to skateboard so bad...I could tell, and I didn't want to hold him back. I don't know.
Anyway...I felt bad after church because he wanted to go back behind the church and ... ya know. Have some fun...but I just didn't feel like it. I was so paranoid about getting in trouble. I felt like I was being a bad girlfriend.
Anyway...today was an okay day I guess. Kaleb, Felicia, Jeremy, Crissy, Riley, and I were planning on going to Six Flags for Kaleb's birthday so I don't have to go to The Mills with Kaleb's stupid friends. But I forgot my dad might want to pick me up this weekend. I'm so sad. And I feel horrible because he is my dad. Its just...its Kaleb's birthday! I already missed the real thing. Life is so freakin gay! I'm gonna call him tonight to see if he's going to. If he does I guess I'll just - - - My mom just came up and said he was probably working on Saturday, and that he really needed to work! Yay! I was gonna say if he does pick me up I'd just have to deal with it. Yes! I'm so happy! Lol.
Well, thats all I had to say. Oh, Jeremy...don't worry about Felicia. I'm sure everything will be fine. And Saturday will be fun! Lol. Cya!
Well, today was a good day...until I got home anyway.
Last night I told Paul I couldn't go to Prom with him...I told him my mom probably wouldn't let me...Kaleb didn't want me to...and that I didn't know how to dance...which are all true...so I wasn't lying.
Nothing really great happened at school today...it was just a normal day. A good normal day.
Then I got home. And my great mood was ruined...at least half of it. Now my mom is deciding the other half...but back to how it happened.
I was walking up the driveway and my mom says, "Pray that George gets this new job in Camdington." (Camdington is in sourthern Missouri)
Now why on earth would I want to do that??? Why would I want to move to Camdington??? Why would I pray to move??? So I say, "I don't want to move to Camdington."
"I thought you would because we'd be closer to your dad and your grandma."
"Well, my other grandma is down here." (Not to mention my aunts and uncles and FRIENDS and CHURCH! Grr...)
So I was very upset. Then I'm like, well, are we going to church tonight? And she just says, "I don't know." Now she told me we're not going at all...because she wants to cook fish! How retarded! So I asked her to call Darline and ask her if she could give me a ride. I'm sure she's off the phone by now. But I'm so afriad it'll be a no and I'll just get upset again...or my mom might get aggervated with me asking...
Well, thats my day in a nutshell...I hope it gets better from here...GRR...
Oh yeah...my awful 'cheating on kaleb' dreams haven't stopped...why the heck does this keep happening??? Its so annoying. It does not mean anything though, because I really do love Kaleb.
Hmm...where to start?
FRIDAY
Well, Friday was a great day because I really didn't have school. My choir went to ECC (East Central College in Union) for a compition. I got my hair done and stuff, it was great. We just wondered around all day, we had no one watching us. I had so much fun! Sam and I were planning on going to the movies that night...but her mom wouldn't let her.
SATURDAYWell, Kaleb and I planned to go to Six Flags, and we actually got to go! We went all day...we let at about 10.30. We went and met up with Crissy, and all her little 7th grader friends or whatever grade they're in...We just hung out. I saw Heather there, and Paul...Duker. I said hi to him and he decided he wanted to draw someone. So he drew Kaleb and some other guy, Jamie, drew me. We didn't get to keep our characatures or whatever though because its Six Flags policy. Oh well.
Crissy and all her friends were probably so jealous because they all think this one guy, Zach, who works there is hott. They weren't with Kaleb and I though, because they left us. But I guess I don't care because she wasn't really talking to me anyway. Crissy is like that sometimes, so I just got used to it.
My stomach started to hurt really bad though, I think it was because basically all I ate all day was junk food. I went on the Boss and I felt like I was going to die...Kaleb was really sweet about it though. He was like, "Well, if it makes your stomach feel better we can just go sit down." So we sat, well, I laid on him and HE sat, on the benches for a while. Then we road the train. The second time around this really weird guy (we think he was, uh, retarded) kept talking to us and asking us if we were his buddies and if we had his back. It kinda scared me. But we got off the train and then the park closed, 6 o'clock.
But thats not all! We went and hung out at his aunt's house until about...8.30. His family is so huge its insane. I don't know how I'm ever going to remember them all. The aunt who's house we were at was his Aunt Dotty, and her husband, forgot his name...he works at UPS though, and he met my mom once! And then there are his two little cousins, Hayden, who's about 4, and Brayden, who's a baby. They are so cute! Lol. And then his grandparents, his grandma's name is Pat, but I forgot his grandpa's name. The one of his other aunt's boyfriends...lol. Ed. And then another aunt, but I forgot her name too! Ahh!
Now you may be thinking, all you did was make out all day, right? Well, thats not true. At Six Flags Kaleb kept trying to kiss me...but there are all those lil kids around! If my lil brother and I were there I would not like seeing teens make out. Eww. So I tried to keep that to a minimum. Lol. But when we got to his aunt's...lol. Thats none of your business!
We just were downstairs watching Austin Powers...the first one. Fun fun. And that was my Saturday. It was the best.
SUNDAYNot much to say. I went to church, hung out with Kaleb, came home, talked to him...thats about it. Lol. At least, thats all I remember.
That night though, Paul text me. At first we just talked about Kaleb...then about him. But I noticed he never really ever says much about himself...then he asked me to go to Prom with him! Isn't that insane? He's a senior...and I'm a freshman. I said sure, but now that I think about it...its not such a good idea.
I don't know how to dance, and I don't really think if I did it'd make much difference because I am really afraid of hanging around people I don't know...
Plus I don't have a nice dress or anything...and what about after parties and stuff? Would he expect me to go to those???
Then my mom...what would she say? Would she even let me go...doubt it.
But at the time I just said sure...now I've got to find a way to say no.
Oh, and I have to tell you, Kaleb really wasn't to happy about it either. And I don't blame him. Who wants they bf/gf to go to someone's prom, who is 3 years older? If Kaleb did that I would be so upset. So those are my multiple reasons for not wanting to go...the only reasons I would want to go is because...I don't know. The experience, you know. And then, because I want to hang out with Paul. I told him in my note that maybe we can just hang out another time. Where there is way less stress. Sound reasonable? I think so...
MONDAY
Yesterday. I get home and go up to Sam's house, cuz it was such a beautiful day and I wanted to take a walk. Plus, Sam told me to call her and I really didn't feel like being on the phone. So I went up there and hung out. My mom was acting really weird. She was like, well, I guess you can go and I'll drive you. I'm like, what? I always walk up there! So I walk up there and she called me as soon as I get there, I'm picking you up. I'm like, I just got here! But I convinced her to just let me stay. (She was going to Pet Smart in St. Louis...but why would I want to go?!)
Then she was really late picking up after making such a big fuss...
Kaleb called me at about, uh, 5 or so...he was at his grandparents house...if my mom wasn't gone so long I probably could've hung out with him...but oh well.
So I finally go home at about 6.30. (Mom let me walk home...I hate when she wants to pick me up...I mean, I'm not lazy! I love taking walks...) Kaleb calls me, but I was just about home so I said I'd call him when I get in. But then it was time to eat. I sit down to eat and halfway through Shawn comes to the door, "Is Muriel here?" And suprising enough Mom let me go. With my dinner. So I left and forgot my cell phone...I swear it was the first time I'd gone out with people in my subdivision for a long time. Shawn is really cool though. I think he's really nice. And funny. I couldn't believe he actually came to my house. At school he said he would...but I didn't think he was serious. If I didn't love Kaleb...lol. Just kidding. Anyway.
I hung out with them for about an hour and came home at bout 7.30. I was like, omg! I forgot about Kaleb...so I called him finally (poor guy) and we talked till about 10. Busiest day in a long time. But I loved it!
Hmm...I guess thats about all. Oh. I tried to tell Michael about Brittany...but he didn't believe me, and I'm not going to get into it anymore. And Steven and I are all good I think...hope so...Apparently Crissy likes him, but thats also none of my business. And Ben and I are all good too...So I'd say things are going GREAT. Wow. I think this is the longest entry I've ever written! Lol.
I guess I'll go now...oh! Kaleb openly admitted he was going to use his mad skills with one hand on his brother! Lol. I'm sorry...I thought that was funny. (He was giving his little brother a bath and I asked if I should go...he said, "No, I have mad skills with one hand Muriel." Lol. He says stupid things like that all the time, and the funniest part is he doesn't realize it till I start cracking up...I'm so perverted...Lol.) Well, Bye!
