Stressed to the Max
Whew. Well, I am totally stressed. But thats okay...I guess I'm one of those people who are driven by stress. If I didn't have it I might be bored in life. So anyway. You might be asking, what is stressing you out so bad? Well, my busy summer schedule is one thing. But thats only half of it. There are so many things I need to get done before the end of the school year and only two weeks to do it in! AH!!!I am in serious need of money. I need new clothes for summer. I have NO shorts whatsever...and I don't have money to buy cameras to take pictures!!! And I'm not going to have my yearbook to have people sign, so I have to make something for everyone to sign. Also Steven is acting really weird lately, ditto with Liana. She is acting really freaky since Crissy and Steven started going out. (I think she might be in a denial period about her true feelings for Steven...but thats just a theory.) Also, every Saturday I have to go to fundraisers to raise money for camp...(another issue with money...) Then there are all my freaking dreams about dying that are really starting to get to me.
Okay, I’ll tell you the one I had last night because its really weird. Alright, I’m on a ship with a whole bunch of sailors. Its dark and stormy and the water is thick like, blood...but its blackish colored. Then all the sailors keep dying and falling off the ship. The captain is an alien, and there are two sailors left. (I’m just kind of watching all this take place...I think.) There are two candles, and the alien asks one of the sailors to take the small candle and relight the big one because it went out. If the sailor doesn’t relight the candle, there will be NO light. Well, the little candle goes out...and the alien (this thing is hideous, it had a green face with lots of wrinkles and big solid-black eyes) butchers the poor sailor with an ax! Then I wake up. Now don’t tell me dreams like that would not have you stressed out during the day! I don’t even think it counts as SLEEP; its just...being scared to death all night long...
The dream I had the night before last night was freaky too. This one I was a character in though. Alright. Its dreary and nighttime in this one too. I don't remember as much about this one as last night's but heres what I do remember: something about an Italian restaurant, ivy (I have no clue...), a witch, a school bus, pioson, and I was Juliet (again..not a clue...). So here's the fragment I remember: I'm sitting on a bus and this witch pulls me out of my seat onto the ile of the bus. Suddenly she stabs me with this long (like 5 foot long) spear with a arrowhead (really big) on the end of it. Stabs me right in the chest. I'm still alive, and so she yanks it out and says, "Just to make sure its dead!" And stabs me again, this time all the way through my body...and yanks it out, tearing my chest to pieces. Then I woke up. Now tell me that is not just freaky?! I don't know where they are coming from...its not like I want to die. I haven't been thinking about it...I just don't know.
So anyway, back to real life. Yesterday Kaleb came over to my house...but it was only for like an hour! I was so sad... First we went for a walk and then we came home and ate some strawberries and onion rings. Lol. Then I asked my mom if we could go downstairs...she was really weird about it too. She was like, "I don't know if thats a good idea." I was like, um, okay, I'm just going to sit around and eat the entire time? NO. That would be totally gay. All we ended up doing was hanging out downstairs and as soon as we started watching Grind his mom came. So yeah. I mean, we only kissed like twice. What does my mom think I'm going to do down there? I'm serious, my mom does not know me at all. She is so...ugh, skeptical of me. She should try trusting me for once! Oh, and Kaleb gave me an Emerica shirt, too bad its ginormous! (Kaleb's word...)
Which leads my to the worst news of all...my Biology project, you know...the one I've been working on for weeks?! Well, my stupid floppy disk deleted it!!! Grr. I cannot believe it. So I come to school today with no project, I'm going to have to completely redo it. AHHH!!! So I am facing only getting half credit for something I worked my butt of on!!! How could this happen?! So I start for the bus this morning and I hear the phone ringing. I pick up; its Sam. "My mom is really mad at me Muriel."
"Why?"
"Because I missed to bus. I don't think I'm going to be able to make it to school today."
So now I have no project, and no partner.
Then I get to school, go into class to tell Mrs. Burnside my horrible news. But guess who is at her desk? A sub. Yep. So I had no project, no partner, and no teacher. Now you may be thinking, why is it such a big deal, your teacher isn't there so its no biggy. Yes it is. She set up a camera so we can still do our projects and she can just grade them later!!! Ah! So yeah. I'm facing 50% now. I'll cry if that happens. Why does it always seem that everything I work so hard for just screw up like this?! So that was my horrible morning. I hope it gets better from here.
So there ya go! I'm done...now I can go on being stressed out. Cya.
1 Comments:
Hey yeah, that sucks. I hope it doesnt bring your grade down, I would be upset about that too. But I think your mom should trust you more too, because if theres anything she has to fear about you is ....well nothing really. But me on the other hand....Lol. I miss you and I hope that your days get better as they come at you in the way that they are (coming that is).
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