DCfC rocks!!!: March 2005

Thursday, March 31, 2005

Yesterday was the most perfect day in a long time...but the one down thing is I was supposed to see Kaleb at church and he didn't get to come. So that stunk. But the weather was perfect and everyone was in a good mood. When Kaleb found out he wasn't going to get to go he was really upset. It kinda scared me. I thought he was going to do something stupid or break something. When I called him after church Jacob picked up the phone and I said, "Hey, is Kaleb there?"
"No, he's outside."
"Why's he outside?"
"He ran off because he didn't get to see you tonight."
"What?!"
Then his mom was like, "He didn't run off. He fell asleep pouting because he didn't get to see you..." And she kept going; she told me he was mad at her because he thought I was mad at him. I was like, oh no! I'm not mad at him! AH! Lol.
So I had her wake him up. Ended up she was just exaggerating, but it really scared me! I hope he calls me soon...I miss him. I haven't seen him for 8 days now. We're planning on going to six flags this weekend. That'd be awesome. Long distance relationships are so hard!
Yesterday 'm' was trying to get me to do stuff with him again...but I really don't want to. I really like Kaleb. And he really likes Missy. So I really like our relationship right now. He's always in such a good mood now. I could get used to it.
Omg! I had this horrible dream last night. I did IT, yeah, crazy huh? In my dream...and not with Kaleb. Isn't that horrible? I really do love him! I don't get it...and the other night I had a dream I was hitting on some random guy even though I was going out with Kaleb! I'm so angry...why is this happening? I hope they stop soon. And the guy it happened with is the most unexpected. I would never want to do that with him! And now when I see him at school I feel like ... atracted to him or something! And I don't like him at all! Eww...
Well, thats it. Cya.

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

After Spring Break

Well, I spent the weekend at my Dad's...I didn't get to see Kaleb on his birthday!!! *tear*
Any way...I don't think I'm getting him anything for his birthday; 1) I have like, no money, 2) I have no clue WHAT to get him, and 3) he said he doesn't want anything anyway...
He said he might by me a seasons pass to six flags! Isn't that amazing?! I love him. Oh my gosh. That would be so awesome if he did and we got to go this weekend. His birthday party is next weekend. I think.
I get to see him tonight! Yay! So...besides talking to Kaleb...Ben is back. He is always in such a good mood now. I am so happy for him. It puts me in a better mood when he is in a good mood.
Liana is back from California too. I'm glad, I love talking to her. She is one of my more interesting friends. When we talk we actually have something to talk about. I wish Steven wasn't her boyfriend though. Just cuz he makes me feel like I shouldn't be friends with her sometimes...oh well.
Steven! He is being nice, which is a total load off. With us at peace I am at peace. I don't have much time to talk to him any more though. I spend a lot of time talking to Kaleb...I never really even have time to talk to anyone else!
I was kind of getting annoyed with Kaleb over the weekend because he can never focus on me...he's always skating or yelling at his brothers or talking to his friends...but I talked to him about it, and it seems things are getting better. I hope he doesn't think I'm controlling or anything! It's just a little annoying.
I got lots of Reese's for Easter! I love Reese's! If you know me, go buy me some right now! Lol.
I can't really wear my converses for a while because I have some kinda weird bug bite thing on my ankles, and I think its because of my converses...hopefully it goes away soon...I love my shoes! I have to wear my Vans...and they hurt my feet too. I think its cuz I'm just used to my super-tight light weight converses and now I have these huge, heavy shoes that feel like they're gonna fall off my feet at any moment! Anyway, not that it really matters...
Well, guess thats all I have to say. POST COMMENTS!!! Lol...

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Scientology Part III - My Opinion / Other's Opinions

I really think Scientology is a big fraud. The creator, L. Ron Hubbard, was a science fiction writer when he said the best way to make a million dollars is to make a religon. Do I think its just a coincidence this 'religon' resembles old fashoin sci-fi? No, I do not. I believe the 'religon' part of this cult is just a cover up that helps with tax exemptions and false medical practice. This cult, from my research, hurts its members through a form of breaking down the mind so it is easier to manipulate. Some call it brainwashing. Others have even died in the hands of Scientologests. I think this should be stopped so no one else will be hurt in the hands of Scientologists.

Thursday, March 24, 2005

Scientology Part II - The Effects It Has On Its Members and Society

Man, this is really hard. There is so much information on Scientology and how it effects the society, I don't know where to start! There are websites with hours worth of articles on Scientology - so I'll just try to give an essay sized version of it. If you know more about this topic than me, and my information is not completely accurate, I am sorry. I'm going to try to just scratch the surface of the CoS, or Church of Scientology.

Scientology and the Internet
I guess I will start with the ongoing fight between Scientology and the Internet. It started in the mid 90's when anti-cultists started posting 'classified' Scientology information in order to inform the world on it. Many people's computers were raided for this alledgedly stolen property. A few years later the CoS went as far as to put tons of spam on anti-scientology web sites, trying to convince people to avoid these sites. Scientology made 116,000 scientology web pages (all containing the SAME information) just so when people searched for scientology in like, google, all it would come up with was all these webs sites...just so no one could find a site that said bad stuff about them. Anti-scientologist were what members of the CoS considered 'fair game', the name they gave their 'enemy'. The following is what scientologist were to do with 'fair game': ENEMY SP Order. Fair game. May be deprived of property or injured by any means by any Scientologist without any discipline of the Scientologist. May be tricked, sued or lied to or destroyed. (Scientologists will ay to this that there was a Fair Game policy cancellation letter written in 1968, but many believe that it is a policy still enforced.)

Scientology and Society

My Week (Boring...)

Hmm...So what did I do this week? To tell you the truth I don't really remember. Man! Nothing really interesting I guess. I think maybe Matt B. likes me or something because when I hang out in the band room in the mornings he always does this thing: he picks me up in the air and squeezes (the life out of me) and kinda throws me around. Its fun though. And he is always hugging me. Kind of weird. Oh well. He's a cool guy.
Yesterday I was standing on Scott's backpack just to be stupid. It made me a lot taller than everyone, so I was happy. (except for Zach W., he was still taller!!!) Anyway, when Scottie had to go he was like, Muriel, I need my backpack. And I was like, you don't need it. Lol. So he came over and pushed me off it. But as I fell backwards my foot got caught in the shoulderstrap! I just went tumbling down. (I'm already clumsy!) It kinda hurt, but not that uch. The funniest part was how everyone around us went silent. And Scott's face...it was like, omg! I can't believe I did that. Are you okay? It was really funny. Nobody ever ACTUALLY hurts me, so I think thats why everyone kinda was like, oh my goodness! Lol. I think some people may have thought I fight broke out or something.
Well, I guess thats about all the interesting stuff that happened this week. David was really sick with the flu, so he wasn't here on Monday or Wednesday. I was thinking about calling him, but when you're sick I don't think you really wanna talk on the phone. So I restrained from it.
Ben is still gone. He never called like he promised. And apperently, according to Amanda's older sister, who I have Algebra II with, Ben cheated on Melissa AGAIN with Amanda. This is great. I thought he stopped! Well, I hope it isn't true. I haven't gotten the whole story because I haven't talked to him so I'm trying to just not care.
And that truly is all the interesting things that happened this week. Wow. I am getting really go at typing! I am so happy. In the words of Steven, "I feel accomplished!" Lol. Cya!

Post Spring Break

As of now most of my time spent on the internet is to research my 'article' on Scientology. Its really late right now, and I am super tired. I just spent about 3 hours researching to give you Scientology Part I. Next I will do Scientology Parts II and III. Why am I doing this, you might ask? 1) because I am a nerd, and am actually interested in learning about this contriversy. And 2) to inform my friends about stuff. Maybe they might learn something! Lol.
Anyway, I would tell you about what I did for the past two days, but I'm too tired. I saw Kaleb tonight and he bought me lots of Reeses. His birthday is this Sunday. I love him! Andrew (this guy at church who I bearly know and he calls ALL the time) bought me a Reeses easter bunny. Isn't that weird? Well, I won't be able to say anything all weekend because I am going to my dad's for spring break. When I get back I'll be sure to tell you all about it. And I'll be sure to tell you if something really big happens, okay?
Cya!

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

Scientology Part I - What Is It?

Scientology is a very contiversial subject that is an expanded version of 'dianetics' from the 1950's. Dianetics was the science of mental health and system of self-improvement techniques. Some countries, like the U.S. and Australia, consider Scientology a religon. Other countries, many European, believe Scientology to be a commercial enterprise, otherwise known as a cult.
The Scientology 'religon' was written and ultimately created by L. Ron Hubbard. Hubbard was accused many times for making Scientology a religous organization in order to keep tax-exemption status and to avoid trouble with governments for false medical claims. Others believe he turned Scientology into a religon for a sort of get-rich-quick scheme.
The main beliefs of Scientology is 1) a person is an immortal spiritual being (known as a thetan) who has a mind and body. The life people of this 'religon' is suppossed to lead is one of continual spiritual and ethical education, awareness, and improvement. And this all leads to the conclusion that they will be happy and gain ultimate salvation, as well as creating a better world. Scientology supposedly offers specific methods to assist a person to achieve this. Another concept in Scientology is 2) the ARC triagle. These are the three components of 'well-living': affinity ( ), reality, and communtication, which equate to understanding.
The central method of Scientology is 'auditing', which is a one-on-one communication with a scietologist 'auditor'. These sessions are meant to help one gain control of their 'reactive' mind, the place where traumatic and bad memories are held and cause people to live lives not completely under their control.
The Church states that the goal of Scientology is a world without war, criminals, and insanity; where good decent people have the freedom to reach their goals.
Many believe Scientology to be a harmful cult, and the Church of Scientology has been in many legal issues do to servial instances such as brainwashing, the disconnection policy, charge of scientology being the cult of personality, harassing, and even death of members.

Monday, March 21, 2005

Its 'Jeez', Not 'Geez'

Ever since I started the 'goo-roo' that has now become a very reliable way of communication (A.K.A. instant messanger, email, livejournal, ect.), I've always spelled 'jeez' with a 'g'.
But today I realized that I am an abomination to all English teachers everywhere. How dare a nerd of my standards stoop to such a low level of intelligence?!
Obviously we do not pronounce it 'gah-ee-z', with a 'g'. Its 'juh-ee-z', with a 'j'.
I can just see it now, "Gah-eez, Charlie Brown." Lol.
So that was for you Mr. Kappaler, and Mrs. Risse, and Mrs. Stauffer, and all my other English teachers. Be proud! For now I can go on to greater and more interesting topics in my blog! Yay.

Alphas, Betas, and Gammas

alpha - 1. Being the highest ranked or most dominant individual of one's sex.

beta - 1: Second in order of importance; "the candidate, considered a beta male, was perceived to be unable to lead his party to victory"

I just read an article on alphas, betas, and gammas. I coundn't find a definition for the latter, but you can read all about it in this article.
It brings a whole lot of things together for me, because they were things I knew all along, but didn't quite understand.
When I was in middle school I always wanted to be an alpha. You know, those pretty, popular girls who EVERYONE wants to be? I would have died to be one of them. But instead I was the typical beta. The smart girl who the alphas always asked to cheat off of. The one who was always cut down.
I had an especially hard time in middle school because I was in love with this guy, and we went out for a few years. But when we broke up my whole life was based on him. I mean, all my friends, my classes, everything. So of course, him being the 'alpha' of our group of friends, he constantly talked bad about me. He even brought all my friends into it.
My life was a living nightmare. I couldn't stand it. And the thing is, I thought I was just crazy. I couldn't understand why I was the one always being treated like this. I could go on and on about that, so I'll keep it to a minimum. I really don't like talking about those days. When high school began I started to get my life back together though.
Eventually my ex and I became very good friends. Best friends. All the people who ever hurt me are either gone from my life or we patched things up good enough to be friends. Now I am a gamma, which is considerably the best thing to be.
I'll put it in perspective for myself: alpha = snob, beta = shy girl who wants to be a snob, and gamma = the one in the middle who wants to be neither and is the best kind of person there is out there. I know that now a lot of people are my friends. Everyone is my friend. I can make people laugh, I listen, I give advice, and at the same time I bleed just like the rest of you.
When I started this blog I thought it would just be about everything I do from day to day (hence the caption and title) but I've come to realize it is a place to put my feelings. My opinions. I really could get used to this. But I also hope someone eventually comments. Thats where all the fun comes from!

Why Do People Use The Same Door?

Today I realized one of the funny querks of human nature.
I was walking into school this morning, and there was a large crowd entering the school. Probably about 50 to 80 students and 4 doors through which they could enter the building.
Now you may be wondering, whats so weird about that? Well, it makes sense with that many people to use all the doors correct? The strange thing is, everyone entered through the same door. Its like everyone is drawn to the same one.
So I decided to go through the door farthest to the left (opposite of everyone else), thinking maybe it was locked or something. But no, it was just like every other door.
It felt extremely weird, I bet I had never walked through that door before! As I walked through I thought, maybe its just human nature to go in the same direction everyone else is. Its easier right? I mean, you don't have to open any doors* for yourself. Its already open.
So the next time you do something, just because everyone else is, and it seems easier, remember that sometimes it not the most efficient way to do something. I mean, I beat a whole crap load of people into the building! Lol.

* metaphorically speaking

Sunday, March 20, 2005

Rhetorical Questions

definition of a rhetorical question:

n : a statement that is formulated as a question but that is not supposed to be answered; "he liked to make his points with rhetorical questions"

A question asked without expecting an answer but for the sake of emphasis or effect. The expected answer is usually "yes" or "no."

Last night when I was talking to Steven we were talking, and he asked me a rhetorical question. What it was, I do not remember. Anyway, he was like, that was supposed to be a rhetorical question. "How about you pretend every question I ask you is now a rhetorical question, okay?" I said okay, and therefore answering his question! I was pretty angry that he got me in about 2 seconds!
Then he said, " You do know what a rhetorical question is, don't you?" And I said yes, and I was answering another question! How ditzy can a person get?! So he kept talking and I was trying really hard not to answer any questions.
Then Steven asked, "You're thinking really hard about this aren't you?" And what do you think I said? "Yes, I am! This is so frus-" then I started cracking up because I realized that this was a fight I could not win. Obviously I'm just insanely ditzy, just stupid, or tired. I like to claim the latter, but believe what you want.

A Sunday Morning

Its Sunday morning...not much going on because my mother decided we're not going to church today. I'm past getting upset about it anymore, because she has been randomly choosing not to go a lot lately.
Going to church is how I mainly see my boyfriend (since we go to different schools), but I guess I've seen him enough this weekend. *raindrops keep falling on my head* Lol. I'm watching Spiderman 2 and my favorite part is when they play that song and he trips right on his face. Thats hilarious!
Hmm...so last night, I finally talked to Steven. (He is my best friend, like my brother...) He got sick few weeks ago and ever since he stopped talking to me. I was really upset about it because he had no reason...he just started ignoring me. But last night I called him and we talked for about an hour and a half. It was really nice to talk to him again.
My grandma and I are talking about superheros. Thats something I'm very interested in ... she thought that 'Kent Clark' was Batman. Isn't that rediculous? Lol. And then she thought that Lois Lane was Spiderman's girlfriend. I thought that was pretty funny.
I was just talking to Kaleb; I'm kind of scared now because his mom was extremely angry. She was trying to sleep and he spent an hour with me on the phone while yelling at his little brother Brandon who he was supposed to be watching...I hope she doesn't stay too mad at him!!!
I go back to school tomorrow...I have some Biologoy homework thats due tomorrow. We're learning about genetics. Pretty interesting stuff, but I am a nerd so good figure I like it!
Right now we're watching Ella Enchanted. I just realized I watch a lot of movies. So far I've watched hmm: American Pie, Hitch, Open Water, Spiderman 2, and Ella Enchanted. Probably more, but I can't remember. I suppose thats all I have to say. I think I'd be more interesting if I knew people read this, but out of the millions there are I doubt anyone will read mine. But if you do happen to read mine, just leave a comment - just to let me know what I could write about to make this more interesting. Thanks!

Strange Dream

Last night I had a very strange dream.
I was at the Lake of the Ozarks with my father (that's where he lives). I don't remember that much, but my father was not being himself. I recall him yelling at me, telling me my hair was horrible looking.
Now I remember! I went to live with him. And the new school I went to was full of preps, and the entire dream they were mocking me. (Along with my father.)
They told me I couldn't wear my beloved converses anymore, and that I could not wear the things I wear. (I am very individualistic and I make my own clothes to ensure no one else will even have them. It would kill me if I did not have that privilege.)
Then I drempt I was running, where to I don't know. And I fell in the mud, and my converses were covered in mud, that, I remember. It was a big deal. Then my father was yelling at me about it.
I remember seeing my mother and begging her to take me home, but she said no. She said my father would just get mad. I was like, 'Who cares?!' But she wouldn't save me from my nightmare.
Then I woke up. I'll let you know my father is very nice to me, and he loves me. And I seriously doubt he would ever make me dress any differently than I do. I just hope this NEVER happens. Whew. I wonder what was going on in my head. I wish I knew someone who did those freaky dream interpretations.

Saturday, March 19, 2005

The New York Intern

Just something to think about...I thought this blog was pretty insightful and maybe it could give me a look on life I normally don't. Normal: My life is so big and important...oh my goodness, what will I wear today? Do I have my homework done? Will I see my boyfriend? It goes on and on. So just something to keep in perspective: there are 6 billion + people out there thinking alomst the same things...maybe if we all thought a little less about ourselves we might get something done in this world.

So, I'm doing my best to spice things up in the intern dungeon, spiffy up the decorum a bit. I've added two windows to the room. One window has a view that is nice. One window has a view that is mediocre at best. But both are drawn on pieces of paper and taped to the wall.

Picture: http://www.livejournal.com/users/scottzawesome/ (Come on...take a look.)

Now, you probably want to know why I drew one window with a view that is mediocre at best, when I could have drawn them all having fantastic views. But think about that. As a realist, I know that our world isn't made up of fantastic views. Would you want to look out into your paper-window world everyday knowing that it was just one big lie?

Maybe you choose to draw paper-window worlds where people live in harmony and bathe in butterscotch waterfalls; you're quite welcome to do so. But you know what happens in my paper-window world? Babies cry, friend. That's right. Think about that while you choke down your butterscotch waterfalls.
[http://newyorkintern.blogspot.com]

Hitch - Movie Review

Hitch **** - movie starring Men in Black's Will Smith, King of Queen's Kevin James, and 2 Fast 2 Furious's Eva Mendes. A comendy about the cure for the common man - finding love. In my opinion the movie was funny, some might say it was a tad chick flickish, but in the end it was not a bad movie. Not to mention Will Smith is one of the finest looking black men in Hollywood.

I may have to see it again though because a movie is extremely hard to watch with your boyfriend, I mean, can you blame me for not paying total attention? Another Will Smith movie recently released I thought was pretty good was iRobot. It had a good story and made you think (in a mystery kind of way), though the book it is based on was written about 60 years ago. It had some nice camera angles too. I wonder who directed it?
(* for crappy, ***** for excellent)

The 1st Entry / Rundown of Weekend

comment on my blog please!
Hmm...I've been reading through some of these blogs and they're pretty interesting. I'm sure mine will not be quite so unique. I'm the typical teenage American girl, with not much to offer the world yet. I hope its a yet.
But besides that, its a typical Saturday afternoon, the family went out of town so I'm just sitting here listening to Something Corporate and 'surfing' the technology that one day will be the death of us all. But for the time being why not enjoy it, right?
I'm not much of a comedian but I'll so my best to keep you interested because I realized these blogs are much more than a 'journal'. They are in a sense, a showcase of our very lives and more like the story of us open for everyone to see.
So the rundown of my weekend:

Thursday - I went to the orthodontist...and when I got home my boyfriend, Kaleb, text me and asked if I could go to his grandmother's. My mother actually let me go, to my astonishment, and I spent the afternoon with him. It was his brother Jacob's birthday and there were little cousins and brothers all over me! AH! But nothing I wasn't used to because I have 4 siblings.
Yesterday - We had no school so I spent the day sleeping, till at least noon, while Kaleb went to school! (We go to different schools.) Then last night I went to the movies, Kaleb and I went to see Hitch.
Today - I slept in yet again...and ever since I've been lingering about the house just trying to keep myself occupied.

DCfC rocks!!!