Alphas, Betas, and Gammas
alpha - 1. Being the highest ranked or most dominant individual of one's sex.beta - 1: Second in order of importance; "the candidate, considered a beta male, was perceived to be unable to lead his party to victory"
I just read an article on alphas, betas, and gammas. I coundn't find a definition for the latter, but you can read all about it in this article.
It brings a whole lot of things together for me, because they were things I knew all along, but didn't quite understand.
When I was in middle school I always wanted to be an alpha. You know, those pretty, popular girls who EVERYONE wants to be? I would have died to be one of them. But instead I was the typical beta. The smart girl who the alphas always asked to cheat off of. The one who was always cut down.
I had an especially hard time in middle school because I was in love with this guy, and we went out for a few years. But when we broke up my whole life was based on him. I mean, all my friends, my classes, everything. So of course, him being the 'alpha' of our group of friends, he constantly talked bad about me. He even brought all my friends into it.
My life was a living nightmare. I couldn't stand it. And the thing is, I thought I was just crazy. I couldn't understand why I was the one always being treated like this. I could go on and on about that, so I'll keep it to a minimum. I really don't like talking about those days. When high school began I started to get my life back together though.
Eventually my ex and I became very good friends. Best friends. All the people who ever hurt me are either gone from my life or we patched things up good enough to be friends. Now I am a gamma, which is considerably the best thing to be.
I'll put it in perspective for myself: alpha = snob, beta = shy girl who wants to be a snob, and gamma = the one in the middle who wants to be neither and is the best kind of person there is out there. I know that now a lot of people are my friends. Everyone is my friend. I can make people laugh, I listen, I give advice, and at the same time I bleed just like the rest of you.
When I started this blog I thought it would just be about everything I do from day to day (hence the caption and title) but I've come to realize it is a place to put my feelings. My opinions. I really could get used to this. But I also hope someone eventually comments. Thats where all the fun comes from!
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