Passanger Seat

My weekend was great...not. Friday night was wonderful; Nate and I talked all night long and I thought things were great. But I've realized that nothing good lasts long and the best thing I can do is let go and hope things get better.

So what happened? Uh, well, Saturday Nate went to see Harry Potter, without me. Then that night he had some friends over and apparantly a girl was coming on to him. Then on Sunday he went and hung out with this band. Then last night I finally got to talk to him...but he decided he wanted to 'go to bed'...at 6.30! Like I'm gonna believe that... Anyway, he told me his grandma was sick and in the hospital, but he didn't act like it was really serious...

So I just go and figure things will get better today...well, they didn't... I came to school and waited to see him and when I did he was just staring at the ground. I asked him if he just wanted me to leave him alone, and he said yes, so I left him alone. Later on I wrote him a note...he was still depressed and not talking to me...and he still wouldn't even tell me what was wrong. I thought his grandmother died.

Then I saw him talking to Jeremy, smiling, and then Crissy told me he had been talking to her. Now what the heck??? He will talk to them, but not to his own girlfriend? I knew something was up.

At lunch he didn't sit with me...but that made sense because he was with Danielle, it was her last day. But then after lunch...she wasn't around. And he was just talking to this freshman. When I tried to talk to him it wasn't even like I was his girlfriend! I felt like an idiot. Then when he were upstairs I expected him to talk to me, but no, he was walking with another girl! I felt so stupid!

Then after 7th hour I grabbed him for a sec and asked him what was going on. He said he needed to call me tonight and talk to me. I was like, why are you going to break up with me? He was like, well, I was going to leave that up to you, since my grandma is going through this I am going to be an emotional wreak for a while. I totally understand that so I told him I didn't want to break up with him.

Now I'm just sitting here waiting for him to call. I have a feeling he was just saying the whole thing about it being my decision because I put him on the spot and he didn't want to seem like a jerk. Plus I probably would've made a big scene...lol.

Maybe it would be better if I just didn't talk to him tonight! Try to fix it at school so he can't just blow me off...and I can make it a big scene if I want! Lol. I didn't even think of that! Well, maybe I will do that. Thats all I have to say for now! Later.