Time To Catch Up With The Present
Okay, I don't really feel like talking about how horrible being at the lake with Dad was. For some reason I am really starting to hate trying to feed out all the thoughts I had for the past day and more. So I think most of my blogs are going to be about my thoughts right then and there, because anything else just bores me.So, the 'present'. Brittany broke up with Michael and is going out with Riley. Gay. I think thats the one word to describe it. Steven thinks I'm overreacting, but I think I should be the 'overreacting' one, because if I don't no one else will...somebody needs to care about everyone else unconditionally. If I don't, who will? Steven is just acting like, whoo, Michael needs to get over it. Thats such an awful thing to say, I don't even want to talk about it.
And I have no clue what is going on elsewhere. Steven is like my only link, and I think his perseption of things is not the greatest. I haven't talked to Liana or Crissy... I tried calling Crissy, but no luck. Oh! Duh, she moved... I'm such an idiot. But everytime she is on the interenet she doesn't say anything to me either. I think I'm worried about our friendship. Its just a hunch though - you see, I've been having these bad dreams that she doesn't want to be my friend and she is talking bad about me. I don't know where that is coming from though - last time I talked to her it was all good.
This is just great. When something bad happens to one person, I act like the sky is falling. I act like all my friends hate me and the world is going to end...I think its mostly because I haven't talked to Kaleb for so long. I miss him so much. I need him. He's my...stronghold. But I guess it is my job to pretend the sky is falling. I'm meant to be the paranoid, cautious, hyper-emotional one. I'm okay with that. Kaleb is okay with that. I'm good.
I think maybe I should try calling Crissy's cell today so I can figure out the 'real' deal. Lol. Besides that nothing is going on. I'm supposed to be seeing Star Wars Episode III today, I can't wait! I grew up on Star Wars. I love those movies! I think its the first movie in years I'm going with my family instead of friends. All my friends have already seen it I bet though, besides, they're all going to Riley's party I think. I think he is such a jerk for doing that to Riley. When you're in a band together you are like family, you just DON'T do that to each other.
So...I really don't know what to say. Besides the drama, not much is happening. Omg! Heather has a boyfriend in Miami, Florida and he is hott!!! Omg...he's worth not having a boyfriend here. Lol. Well, they broke up a few months ago, but I bet they'll go out again soon. Their relationship is so weird though. They sit on the computer and look at each other on their web cams and talk on the phone a lot...I guess its not that different than Kaleb and I, except we see each other like, 2 or 3 times a week. We have to. We would die otherwise.
I'm going to get new converses! They're so cool. They are two-toned Fuscha and Green. I can't wait to get them...I'm a lil scared about going to Mississippi...I keep having bad dreams about it and everything. I'm afraid of those gay games (they were horrible!) and all the dumb rules Kaleb said they have...We're supposed to have 'supervised' free time this year. Last year nothing bad happened and we weren't supervised in our free time. I mean, its 'free' time. Away from all the rules and big shot jerks who think they can push us around because we're older... Another rule is we can't have a two piece swimsuit. Who doesn't have a two piece swimsuit??? Even Amy (my youth pastors wife) I bet has a two piece. That is the dumbest rule I ever heard. I g2g eat. Cya!!!
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