Ranting Ranting
Omg! Well...I really think things with Steven and Liana are going downhill. Steven didn't say a word to me today, but thats okay because I am still mad at him. (He was SOOOO rude yesterday!!!)But Liana...I don't know. Maybe I'm just over reacting... But after school I was sitting there all by myself by the wall, right in front of "The Group" and no one bothered to talk to me. (Except Jeremy, God bless him...)
So she comes over and just stands there behind Steven and I don't know if they talked...that isn't the piont. I'm just stating that she was some where where she could see me. Anyway, and she didn't say a word to me. I don't even know if she looked at me. Even after everyone else was gone...and she was standing there...she still didn't even say HI. I don't know...
I guess someone could turn it around on me and say, "How come you didn't say hi to me?" But ... still ... I had a reason from staying on the sidelines. The 'Group' is gay. They always make me feel unwanted, or at least one of them. Every time I try to talk to them...so why bother? That is why I stay on the side and wait for them to come to me...which they NEVER do...RARELY. Liana used to...Oh well.
I really think she is trying to hold her relationship with Steven though...so I don't know if I really blame her. Steven will just ditch her if she doesn't try to hold it together.
He like, latches to different girls and won't let anything come between that... As soon as he left Liana he 'fell' out of love with her (in like a week! yeah right.) and suddenly falls 'madly' in 'love' with a new girl. I don't get it. I think he is dangerous. Too obsessive. I'm so lucky to have Kaleb. He would never act the way Steven does. Steven is irrational and mean, obsessive, and controlling. Kaleb is just loving and giving, and totally calm and free. Totally perfect for me.
Kaleb was asking me the other day who my favorite boyfriend was. He was like, "Probably Steven right? Since you went out with him so long..."
I was like, "No way! You are my favorite boyfriend."
He's like, "You're not just saying because I'm your boyfriend are you?"
"No. You really are the most perfect boyfriend I've ever had. All my friends are jealous that I have such a sweet boyfriend." Which is the truth. He is so good to me and cares so much about me and my feelings. He would nearly do anything for me. I love him! And unlike Steven, when I say that I mean it. I'm not just acting on impulse. I think thats what he does. He is desperate for a relationship, so he constantly has to be 'in love' with someone.
Anyway though. Now that I got THAT all out...I have nothing much to say. You know what sucks? George is working nights now, so he is here all day long and we have to be completely silent. How is that supposed to work?! We have 5 kids! One of which is a 4-year-old boy. I don't think we can just shut him up in his room and keep him quite all day long. Thats not even fare! We are children, let us have a childhood! Well, enough with my ranting. I'll stop now...but I need something to talk about because I can't do anything that makes noise...this totally sucks...(George is downstairs right next to my room so that means no talking on the phone, no playing the keyboard, no listening to the radio, and no sewing. How on earth am I going to be able to do that?) How about I do 100 things about myself? Thats good. Here I go!!!
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